For those With Less Than Two Weeks Sober Part 5
Cool, the three of us are all on day 9.
I agree PB, there is so much more we can do sober. I have dreamed about being clean and sober for so long, and now it has finally clicked that it is time to get my butt in gear and make it happen. Why was it ever so satisfying to hole up by myself and get high all day? I am done wasting time.
I have an appointment with an outpatient clinic tomorrow. Not sure if it will be the right program for me, but just making the appointment is a huge step for me. I have told my close friends/family what I am doing, and have great support.
Glad to have everyone here to make this journey with.
K
I agree PB, there is so much more we can do sober. I have dreamed about being clean and sober for so long, and now it has finally clicked that it is time to get my butt in gear and make it happen. Why was it ever so satisfying to hole up by myself and get high all day? I am done wasting time.
I have an appointment with an outpatient clinic tomorrow. Not sure if it will be the right program for me, but just making the appointment is a huge step for me. I have told my close friends/family what I am doing, and have great support.
Glad to have everyone here to make this journey with.
K
Great job Paddington. Wow, you've saved a lot towards your diving goal. I'm impressed. I still have to figure out what my goal is. I'm still kind of scattered, lol! I've noticed extra money in my pocket too these last two weeks. It got pretty expensive because I would only buy enough for one day of drinking. My image you know? Couldn't have the liquor store clerks thinking I had a problem.
I remember walking into a 7/11 sometime during the last week of my drinking and seeing three policemen standing over by the coffee. I was a wreck. I didn't care, I had to get some booze. The clerk is from Vietnam I think. He rang up my purchases really quickly and bagged them. Then he leaned over and whispered, "Lady, you crazy but you nice...Them police don't like crazy so hurry and go now." I did get home safely, and with out incident, but it just shakes me up how I didn't care one bit what might happen to me.
LacieMae - Congratulations on your 9 days too. Amazing how fast some things can change when we start doing the next right thing for ourselves, huh?
15 days for me...I'll keep coming back here, but can anybody tell me which thread follows next in this sequence. Least are you around? Where do I go from here?
On Edit: Grrrr - We must have been posting at the same time. A Woo Hoo on your 9 days. Sounds like a good plan to check on OP. Nothing to lose by just checking it out. Isn't it nice
to have a more open mind these days? I've been so closed off for a long time. It's great to be
considering alternatives to staying sober. Wasn't very long ago that the only considering I did was managing my next drunk!
I remember walking into a 7/11 sometime during the last week of my drinking and seeing three policemen standing over by the coffee. I was a wreck. I didn't care, I had to get some booze. The clerk is from Vietnam I think. He rang up my purchases really quickly and bagged them. Then he leaned over and whispered, "Lady, you crazy but you nice...Them police don't like crazy so hurry and go now." I did get home safely, and with out incident, but it just shakes me up how I didn't care one bit what might happen to me.
LacieMae - Congratulations on your 9 days too. Amazing how fast some things can change when we start doing the next right thing for ourselves, huh?
15 days for me...I'll keep coming back here, but can anybody tell me which thread follows next in this sequence. Least are you around? Where do I go from here?
On Edit: Grrrr - We must have been posting at the same time. A Woo Hoo on your 9 days. Sounds like a good plan to check on OP. Nothing to lose by just checking it out. Isn't it nice
to have a more open mind these days? I've been so closed off for a long time. It's great to be
considering alternatives to staying sober. Wasn't very long ago that the only considering I did was managing my next drunk!
three cheers for you guys on 9 days
and 2 cheers for me and mtnmagic
just checking in before leaving work and already i feel a little empowered from reading the determination in each of US.
thanks...Your continued perseverence helps me, everyone. slowly we are changing ourselves and together we are changing the world.
and 2 cheers for me and mtnmagic
just checking in before leaving work and already i feel a little empowered from reading the determination in each of US.
thanks...Your continued perseverence helps me, everyone. slowly we are changing ourselves and together we are changing the world.
Grrrr, Laciemae and Shanman, well done on your 9 days! It's great that all four of us are on 9 days and moving forward together.
mtnmagic, I really identified with your post. You know, I used to buy alcohol in several different stores on the way home (rather than buy a huge amount in just one store) and conceal it all in a rucksack. If I bumped into someone I knew at the check-out or on the way home, I didn't want them to know I had a problem. I'm glad those days are behind me now.
Big cheers for you, mtnmagic and ksplash, for your 15 days!!!
mtnmagic, I really identified with your post. You know, I used to buy alcohol in several different stores on the way home (rather than buy a huge amount in just one store) and conceal it all in a rucksack. If I bumped into someone I knew at the check-out or on the way home, I didn't want them to know I had a problem. I'm glad those days are behind me now.
Big cheers for you, mtnmagic and ksplash, for your 15 days!!!
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Wow, I can't stop reading. I've been lurking here for a while, totally ashamed to show my face here. I know that you won't "dis" me, nor hate me, nor anything bad. However, my shame is eating me up. I just want to stay lurking, and hiding. I felt like I had it all under control, but, it apparently has ME under control. I don't like to think that I am "powerless", but, I think I am.
So, today, will be yet ANOTHER DAY 1. I am so sick of Day 1's. I hope that all my friends here I've met in the past won't hate me for being gone, and for not being here to support them. I hate leaning on anyone, or asking for anything. But, I'm falling apart here.
I'm so sorry. I feel like I've failed everyone, but, especially myself.
Thanks,
Honu :Fall15
So, today, will be yet ANOTHER DAY 1. I am so sick of Day 1's. I hope that all my friends here I've met in the past won't hate me for being gone, and for not being here to support them. I hate leaning on anyone, or asking for anything. But, I'm falling apart here.
I'm so sorry. I feel like I've failed everyone, but, especially myself.
Thanks,
Honu :Fall15
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Goodness, it never occurred to me that anyone would miss me.....I guess I assumed.....oh, never mind. It doesn't matter. Assuming is a bad thing. Thank you, though, for not forgetting me. You've made me all weepy, now.
Honu
Honu
It's okay Honu... we are here for you! Don't ever be afraid, that's what is so wonderful about this website... we all have our ups and downs to share! Keep posting... Day 1 is better than not trying at al!!!
Hey Honu - Welcome. Ya know deciding on a day one even if it is "again" is huge. Those day ones are he!!, and don't I know it. I've gone through sooo
many Day ones it is beyond my ability to count them. Good for you to come back here.
I'm on day 15 and I keep coming here to post. That is because this thread really, really helped me in getting my two weeks. (Also, I don't know which thread to go to from here, so I hang around here until I can figure it out, lol!):bounce
many Day ones it is beyond my ability to count them. Good for you to come back here.
I'm on day 15 and I keep coming here to post. That is because this thread really, really helped me in getting my two weeks. (Also, I don't know which thread to go to from here, so I hang around here until I can figure it out, lol!):bounce
Hey magic, glad you have graduated the thread, but I selfishly am glad you haven't really left yet! Let me know where to go though, I hope to follow you soon!
Hey Honu, check out the date I joined this forum, talk about many day 1's! For me, it has been approaching things with a different attitude this time. I really can't drink or smoke without having problems, and I am sick of bringing those problems into my life. I am glad you are here, this thread is great, and you can move past day 1. What will you do different this time?
K
Hey Honu, check out the date I joined this forum, talk about many day 1's! For me, it has been approaching things with a different attitude this time. I really can't drink or smoke without having problems, and I am sick of bringing those problems into my life. I am glad you are here, this thread is great, and you can move past day 1. What will you do different this time?
K
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What will I do differently this time? I honestly don't know. Right now, I'm just making the decision to not drink tonight. Tomorrow, is a new decision. I am working tomorrow, so it's not really an option. That never bothered me, anyway. When you can't, you just don't. Or, at least, to me, that's the way it is.
I guess keep coming here, to read and learn, and just do one day at a time.
Honu
I guess keep coming here, to read and learn, and just do one day at a time.
Honu
Ok folks - I went on a search and found a thread that Negative Man started for people with 30 days or less. Seems the next natural place to focus on for me at least. It hasn't been active for a few days, but I have every confidence we can move and make it very active and supportive for anybody on here who is working on 30 days of sobriety. What do you think?
I like it magic! 30 days seems like a good new goal. I would be thrilled to get to that point.
Honu, taking it slow and coming back here sounds like a fine idea. I know others are finding help in AA meetings and I am going to check out an outpatient program that includes AA. I have also reached out this time to friends and family for support. Whatever it takes, let's all keep doing it.
K
Honu, taking it slow and coming back here sounds like a fine idea. I know others are finding help in AA meetings and I am going to check out an outpatient program that includes AA. I have also reached out this time to friends and family for support. Whatever it takes, let's all keep doing it.
K
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
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I see no reason members can't share in either
the Under 30 thread or here or both...
Stickly speaking...I don't belong in this one.
I was asked by a member...no longer active...
to come share my experiences here
and
I've stayed because it's such a joy to
watch y'all move forward.
Forward we go...side by side....
the Under 30 thread or here or both...
Stickly speaking...I don't belong in this one.
I was asked by a member...no longer active...
to come share my experiences here
and
I've stayed because it's such a joy to
watch y'all move forward.
Forward we go...side by side....
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