Cuddle-Thon Part 3
I've had three cravings in the last hour, someone please hug me, I'm feeling confused and betrayed and alone. I can't mess up my time, I'm coming up on five months. Why is this happening to me? I have resolve now, I have confidence - why are these thoughts trying to sabotage my recovery??
I know I'm not alone, I'm here with friends, but I just 'feel' so alone right now and distraught.
I know I'm not alone, I'm here with friends, but I just 'feel' so alone right now and distraught.
I have a program tailored to my life and needs. Not a 12 step program but one leaning heavily on my Maker. I'm not afaid I'll relapse, cause I'm too damn stubborn to throw it all away, but it's depressing and annoying to get belted with these negative abusive thoughts.
And when I sometimes feel that my Maker is so far from me, then I lean on my dogs. I live to love and be loved by them, so won't do anything to hurt our loving relationship... it's just so freakin' frustrating to be hit out of nowhere by such destructive impulses.
Besides wanting to be a good 'dog mom' to my dogs, I am beginning to like myself better than I have in years. I like having self respect these days.
I know that any time I'm hit with this sort of thinking I can come here and get support and understanding. This place is my saving grace!
Love right back to you!:ghug3
And when I sometimes feel that my Maker is so far from me, then I lean on my dogs. I live to love and be loved by them, so won't do anything to hurt our loving relationship... it's just so freakin' frustrating to be hit out of nowhere by such destructive impulses.
Besides wanting to be a good 'dog mom' to my dogs, I am beginning to like myself better than I have in years. I like having self respect these days.
I know that any time I'm hit with this sort of thinking I can come here and get support and understanding. This place is my saving grace!
Love right back to you!:ghug3
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