Dan

There.
Better.

jenniferaz1980

Thanks Dan. You just made me cry. I am trying. I really am. It is just really hard! Thanks again!

Dan

It's a we program Jen.
A burden shared is somehow made a bit lighter.
Right James...

jenniferaz1980

I swear you are a man who always know what to say.

I am very sensitive right now. I hope I did not offend him or make him feel bad about what he said. It was his oppion and everyone has one.

shyQcodep

******{Jennifer}}}}

Thank you so much for sharing part of your life with Stephanie with us. Cry away, you just got a few of my tears to add to the pool. As Kath said, God's speed to Stephanie, and hugs for you.

Dan, is this ever a we program!

jenniferaz1980

Thanks James.. I will share more just not tonight. There is not a meeting for me to go to tonight so I got to keep some control.

Love you guys!

spirit

At the risk of being informal, i wish to say hi hun.

i know exactly what you meant about the gay thing, for some reasons we hetros dont feel the need to explain or justify our sexuality if it is raining or whatever, but we expect you to explain or justify your understanding of rain cause you are gay!!!! what a crock of **** hey. so i do know what you mean.

i am so glad your mum supports and loves you even though at times she might not get it. she is probably grieving too and doesnt know how to grieve for a daughter in law let alone help her daughter grieve for her partner.

hugs to you mate
take care and PM anytime
cheers
kath

oh i copied what you had said, so i could read it while i responded (different computer)

the other thing is, dont feel bad for sharing, this is a safe place for you to let things out as you need to - keep coming back

hugs
kath
Kath-- Thanks you for you understanding. What I ment by the gay making it wrong is that fact that I never feel like I get out what I want to get out when it come to my emotions in the situations becasue I am having to deal with everyone else problem about who I am. I never get a chance to just talk about her and us. Me bing "gay" is such a small part of me and who we were together. Do get what I am trying to say.

My mom has always been open about not agreeing but she has accepted me for who I was. But she has said some very harsh things that have really hurt. But I love my mom and she loved me and we will be fine.



I kind wish I would not have shared this much. I am a mess right now!

jenniferaz1980

Good morning. I woke up again this morning and it was a great start to my day.

I cryed my eyes out last night. I feel rather numb right now. But I am trying to get it out and turn it over. But it is a process.

Dan

Yes it is Jen. And you're blessed with the tools to get through it.
That you had a great start today is proof that the process works.
How grateful I am for that

jenniferaz1980

((((dan)))))

shyQcodep

Good morning, Jen.

I'm on the edge of tears just reading these two new posts on the thread - but I woke up this morning thinking of this thread as a "love fest" (the exact words). Your grief is real, but so is the love

jenniferaz1980

Thanks James. You are right it is. I have got to share how much and why I loved her. I need to do that. It allows me to open up to my feelings and that is nessisary to grive. Some days are better than others. Today is going to be a good one.

shyQcodep

It is already

jenniferaz1980

Yes!

I have to admitt that I have been posting on this site for about two months now. It was a place that I could go to around addicts when I could not get to a meeting. But I felt that it was a choice to come here not a must. But with the path my life has taken me on I have to go to meetings. I work full time so at work I get these overwheling emotions and I dont know what to do. This site really is a good place at those times.

Of course there are people here who say the wrong things. But they are just like me. We are all human.

I love you guys. Thanks you.

I love you Stephanie and I really miss you.