thekillerinyou

Hi again, some of you may have seen me go back and forth with my brother recently, Chris/Sun Volt...large forum, and man dial up is tough.

Anyway.

I noticed something really odd and really sucky today when I was at the airport and on the plane, hell even the ride home :/

I think since because I was practically living his life to save it for so long, ... I literally 'forgot who I am'. 17+ days...

Common and cliche.

Lots of people possibly have the mid-life crisis, or enabling to the max maybe like I've done, ...forgot who one is. Not so simple. Sigh.

Disassociative Disorder has been briefly touched upon since I registered.

Today at O'Hare in Chicago, I was early. I sat there, exhausted, and closed my eyes.

Airports are a TRIP!

I heard all of the people bustling in and out of the 2nd's most populas airport in the world.

When I did open my eyes, I really think it's crazy looking when people come off the plane with cell phones/ear plugs, LOL! Look like they're talking to themselves.

I really started to feel detached, from absolutely everything. Exhaustion? I think so, however, it made me think, exactly how much does medication versus circumstantial and very real life problems match up together?

I'm going to post this a couple different threads, just found it weird.

Was calling it a mild psychotic break earlier . I was OUT there.

Peace,

Kelly

historyteach

Kelly;
Exhaustion can cause lots of different things, including delusion.
Please get to your doctor for an evaluation.
But remember Ocam's razor -- the simplist solution is probably the right one. KISS - keep it simple, silly!

Hope you feel better soon!
Shalom!

thekillerinyou

Ocam's Razor? You'll have to show me that, I've never heard of it

I'll probably look into an Intensive Outpatient Program, my doctor is good, just doles out pills (at least we agree on those).

Never had a therapist that could keep up with me.

It did feel like a psychotic break, albeit mild, and it did remind me of disassociative disorder.

Yeah I'm probably just tired, but do feel (sorry for the meldrama) traumatized from the trip and overwhelmed when I got back to my life last night, including my parents dilemmas, sigh another biggy.

Thank you again, damn batteries in my pc stuff are low.

Kelly

historyteach

Let us know how you're doing.

Shalom!