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okay so i threw away my weed only to fish it out of the trash and use it the next day. I threw it away again this time in in a bag with all sorts of gross stuff. I hadn't been to meeting in 4 days because I'll tell myself I'm don't feel good and am to tired and I'll go tomorrow. when I feel bad I want to isolate. I feel so awful today after using so tired. I realized today I don't even like it, it makes me feel awful. I really felt I had it this time. I was feeling irritable all day yesterday and I was really resentful at having to work at a job I hate. I didn't tell anyone how I was feeling. sometimes I don't know how to talk about how I'm feeling or were to start. I don't want to live like this and I really know It's not fun anymore. going to a meeting tonight tp say I screwed again. I did a fourth and fifth step and I've done most of my admends but it didn't work.
David

Dee74

No one feels great when they quit David, but you’re not feeling go see a doctor level sick, or blow off work level sick right?
You said the meetings were helping - go hit that meeting

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DanielBoucher

Sorry to hear about your relapse, David. Just recommit yourself to staying sober once again. I hope it goes well. Keep at it!