My Positive Focus List
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My Positive Focus List
Ok, I think I need it.
For some reasons I have issues with the word "gratitude". I won't dwell on these reasons here - it's more for discussion at some other part of this forum.
But keeping focus on positive things rather than fixating on negative ones - that surely helps.
So, I will keep my positive focus list here.
I will start with baby steps, hopefully adding more and more each day.
And for today it will be:
- Coffee;
- SR.
See you in my positive focus)
For some reasons I have issues with the word "gratitude". I won't dwell on these reasons here - it's more for discussion at some other part of this forum.
But keeping focus on positive things rather than fixating on negative ones - that surely helps.
So, I will keep my positive focus list here.
I will start with baby steps, hopefully adding more and more each day.
And for today it will be:
- Coffee;
- SR.
See you in my positive focus)
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Day 2 of enhancing my positive focus.
Things and events that have been within this focus today by far:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- A workout in the gym. It feels really good that doesn't matter what, doesn't matter what kind of mood I am in, what's going on in my life, and what's the weather like outside - I very rarely, if ever, make excuses to skip a workout. If it's a workout day (which is almost every day of a week), then I do it. Period. And always feel thousand times better after!
- On my way to the gym met a lady who always makes compliments about my physique shape) She somewhat complained that despite of strict nutrition she gained a kilo. I told her it's obviously water, and it will be gone soon. Perked her mood a little bit)
- And although I felt quite low in the morning, I regained sense of perspective and positive outlook later.
- Having lunch managed not to overeat! I've been fighting binge-eating/overeating for quite a long, doing better now. So it's kind of big deal for me)
Now having after-lunch coffee and trying to take one day at a time)
Things and events that have been within this focus today by far:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- A workout in the gym. It feels really good that doesn't matter what, doesn't matter what kind of mood I am in, what's going on in my life, and what's the weather like outside - I very rarely, if ever, make excuses to skip a workout. If it's a workout day (which is almost every day of a week), then I do it. Period. And always feel thousand times better after!
- On my way to the gym met a lady who always makes compliments about my physique shape) She somewhat complained that despite of strict nutrition she gained a kilo. I told her it's obviously water, and it will be gone soon. Perked her mood a little bit)
- And although I felt quite low in the morning, I regained sense of perspective and positive outlook later.
- Having lunch managed not to overeat! I've been fighting binge-eating/overeating for quite a long, doing better now. So it's kind of big deal for me)
Now having after-lunch coffee and trying to take one day at a time)
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Day 3.
My lag tooth is giving me hard time today, and I deeply regretted chewing my lunch, because after that I was about to climb the walls.
But still there are some things in my positive focus:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Boxing workout (I decided it's better to do some workout instead of staying at home full of pity to myself because of pain caused by the lag tooth);
- And absolutely gorgeous full moon I saw on my way back from the gym! It was so bright, and so big, and seemed to be so close as if I could reach it with my hand.
My lag tooth is giving me hard time today, and I deeply regretted chewing my lunch, because after that I was about to climb the walls.
But still there are some things in my positive focus:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Boxing workout (I decided it's better to do some workout instead of staying at home full of pity to myself because of pain caused by the lag tooth);
- And absolutely gorgeous full moon I saw on my way back from the gym! It was so bright, and so big, and seemed to be so close as if I could reach it with my hand.
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Day 4.
Not a great day at all. And still:
- SR;
- Coffee (yes, in that order - I was doing some hormone tests in the morning and was not supposed to eat or drink anything but plain water);
- Though my thyroid ultrasound results didn't turn well at all - chances are high I will need surgery, I still:
- didn't drink over it;
- didn't eat sweets over it;
- didn't binge-eat/overeat over it.
- I finally got my guts together to go through red-tape and apply for public hospital to get medical help (kind of long story where I live).
- Started gathering information about a good thyroid doctor to consult - I wasn't happy about the one I saw last time.
So, though during a couple of hours I was paralyzed with fear , I turned the rest of the day into productive one.
Not a great day at all. And still:
- SR;
- Coffee (yes, in that order - I was doing some hormone tests in the morning and was not supposed to eat or drink anything but plain water);
- Though my thyroid ultrasound results didn't turn well at all - chances are high I will need surgery, I still:
- didn't drink over it;
- didn't eat sweets over it;
- didn't binge-eat/overeat over it.
- I finally got my guts together to go through red-tape and apply for public hospital to get medical help (kind of long story where I live).
- Started gathering information about a good thyroid doctor to consult - I wasn't happy about the one I saw last time.
So, though during a couple of hours I was paralyzed with fear , I turned the rest of the day into productive one.
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Day 5. Again not great news - thyroid hormone test didn't turn out great. But still:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Got the insuranсу certificate required by the public hospital (didn't cost me anything)
- Finally got it how to work in a designer program to make design for my new apartment.
- Managed to focus on things I could do. Managed to keep anxiety and worries about tomorrow's appointment with a doctor at bay as much as I could.
- Didn't buy anything food-wise to "eat away" my not so great news.
- Made it to the gym - back workout, and then boxing. Really kicked a$$ to a new guy in our class. Managed to smile and giggle because it was really fun (the guy was smiling too, so we were cool);
- One of my pals at the gym told me that I seemed to lose some weight - always good to hear);
- Moon still beautiful,
- Did my scheduled writing;
- Go my medical papers ready in advance - no rushing around tomorrow in the morning.
- Decided - no matter what - I will look good and smile tomorrow. And I will fight for myself.
- Now will watch Fargo for a bit. Cool show)
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Got the insuranсу certificate required by the public hospital (didn't cost me anything)
- Finally got it how to work in a designer program to make design for my new apartment.
- Managed to focus on things I could do. Managed to keep anxiety and worries about tomorrow's appointment with a doctor at bay as much as I could.
- Didn't buy anything food-wise to "eat away" my not so great news.
- Made it to the gym - back workout, and then boxing. Really kicked a$$ to a new guy in our class. Managed to smile and giggle because it was really fun (the guy was smiling too, so we were cool);
- One of my pals at the gym told me that I seemed to lose some weight - always good to hear);
- Moon still beautiful,
- Did my scheduled writing;
- Go my medical papers ready in advance - no rushing around tomorrow in the morning.
- Decided - no matter what - I will look good and smile tomorrow. And I will fight for myself.
- Now will watch Fargo for a bit. Cool show)
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Day 6.
My positive focus has been so broad today that embraced almost the entire day:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- I was surprisingly free of "freaking-type" anxiety before the appointment with the doctor;
- The doctor was nice and competent, and didn't bugged with with questions why I don't have kids yet;
- And I can do without a surgery!
- And the main thyroid hormone is ok, so I have to re-do my test to get more accurate results;
- And on my way back I helped an old lady to step up to the boardwalk, and she called me "baby doll" and wished me luck))));
- And later on I had amazing workouts. First, in the gym with our trainer - she was doing chest as well, so we had both fun and productive workout. And then boxing - we were doing mitts, and trainer complemented me on my technique! My, that felt great.
- Enjoying amenities of the modern civilization in the form of a dish washing machine. Dream came true finally about a month ago. Actually, to be honest I pushed these dream to a lot of illogical obstacles - but not the point)
- Another episode of Fargo and then sweet dreams.
And all SR folks around the globe in my positive focus of this great September day)
My positive focus has been so broad today that embraced almost the entire day:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- I was surprisingly free of "freaking-type" anxiety before the appointment with the doctor;
- The doctor was nice and competent, and didn't bugged with with questions why I don't have kids yet;
- And I can do without a surgery!
- And the main thyroid hormone is ok, so I have to re-do my test to get more accurate results;
- And on my way back I helped an old lady to step up to the boardwalk, and she called me "baby doll" and wished me luck))));
- And later on I had amazing workouts. First, in the gym with our trainer - she was doing chest as well, so we had both fun and productive workout. And then boxing - we were doing mitts, and trainer complemented me on my technique! My, that felt great.
- Enjoying amenities of the modern civilization in the form of a dish washing machine. Dream came true finally about a month ago. Actually, to be honest I pushed these dream to a lot of illogical obstacles - but not the point)
- Another episode of Fargo and then sweet dreams.
And all SR folks around the globe in my positive focus of this great September day)
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Day 7.
- Coffee;
- SR;
- While sorting out files on the computer, I found U2 album "No line above the horizon". Listened to it and just loved it. How could I miss it?
- Great boxing workout;
- On my way back from groceries shopping, rains started exactly the moment I stepped into the house)));
- Coffee;
- SR;
- While sorting out files on the computer, I found U2 album "No line above the horizon". Listened to it and just loved it. How could I miss it?
- Great boxing workout;
- On my way back from groceries shopping, rains started exactly the moment I stepped into the house)));
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Day 8. Sunday Positive Focus;
- Coffee, and ricotta-cacao-dates delicious treat to go with it. It's Sunday, after all);
- SR. I checked my sobriety calculator and - WOW! I am hitting 700 days sober! Which also equals 23 months!
- Made half a list of things I planned. Not so bad)
- Smiling more overall)
- Coffee, and ricotta-cacao-dates delicious treat to go with it. It's Sunday, after all);
- SR. I checked my sobriety calculator and - WOW! I am hitting 700 days sober! Which also equals 23 months!
- Made half a list of things I planned. Not so bad)
- Smiling more overall)
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Thank you, Opi)
So, it's Day 9 which was quite challenging to adjust my positive focus to.
I was at my another doctor, and they found more issues in my body. Myoma. Plus lots of hormones are screwed up. I will need treatment now. Waiting for test results.
And yet:
- Coffee;
- More coffee;
- SR. SR. SR. I can't imagine how I would do without SR. It's so essential not to be afraid to express feelings - that I am afraid, vulnerable, and... whatever.
- In spite of health issues my doctor said that it's ok for me to go on with my workouts - gym and boxing. Just "listen" carefully to my body.
- So, I headed to the gym for a butt-kicking workout. "When life gets complicated I lift". Yeah, sounds like me today.
- Didn't eat-binge over not-so-great news;
- Did my writing - despite of "i feel low, I am not in the mood".
- Haven't seen Mayweather vs. Maidana yet. So, avoid news and anticipate the treat)
Well, I think, not a bad focus for a crappy day, after all.
So, it's Day 9 which was quite challenging to adjust my positive focus to.
I was at my another doctor, and they found more issues in my body. Myoma. Plus lots of hormones are screwed up. I will need treatment now. Waiting for test results.
And yet:
- Coffee;
- More coffee;
- SR. SR. SR. I can't imagine how I would do without SR. It's so essential not to be afraid to express feelings - that I am afraid, vulnerable, and... whatever.
- In spite of health issues my doctor said that it's ok for me to go on with my workouts - gym and boxing. Just "listen" carefully to my body.
- So, I headed to the gym for a butt-kicking workout. "When life gets complicated I lift". Yeah, sounds like me today.
- Didn't eat-binge over not-so-great news;
- Did my writing - despite of "i feel low, I am not in the mood".
- Haven't seen Mayweather vs. Maidana yet. So, avoid news and anticipate the treat)
Well, I think, not a bad focus for a crappy day, after all.
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I missed my yesterday's positive focus - it was blurred by my blue mood.
Today, at Day 10, I am "clearing my vision" and bringing some positiveness back:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Great boxing workout;
- That I finally managed to take regain control of a steering wheel and get out of the self-beating depressive nosedive.
- Managed to stay in the now. Even though for a couple of minutes. But still...
Today, at Day 10, I am "clearing my vision" and bringing some positiveness back:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Great boxing workout;
- That I finally managed to take regain control of a steering wheel and get out of the self-beating depressive nosedive.
- Managed to stay in the now. Even though for a couple of minutes. But still...
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Day 11. My positive focus is still a little bit "shaky" but it has managed to grasp good things anyway:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Garou's songs in my smartphone - never fails to make my mood better. And whenever I listen to his music I feel like someone strong and kind is consoling me and healing warmth is wrapping my wounded soul;
- On my way to the gym I met one of my boxing buddies and he gave me a ride to the gym;
- Good boxing workout;
- Fresh air which smells like .. autumn. And starry sky when I look out of the window.
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Garou's songs in my smartphone - never fails to make my mood better. And whenever I listen to his music I feel like someone strong and kind is consoling me and healing warmth is wrapping my wounded soul;
- On my way to the gym I met one of my boxing buddies and he gave me a ride to the gym;
- Good boxing workout;
- Fresh air which smells like .. autumn. And starry sky when I look out of the window.
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Originally Posted by SoberJennie 
I noticed the fresh autumn air today too, MB 
So comforting.
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Day 12 in my Positivity Land:
- Absolutely gorgeous morning. I don't remember when the last time I looked out the window just staring at the sky not thinking about anything - but just enjoying the beautiful morning. I felt so great!
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Found the information on Internet I, honestly, didn't even hope to find;
- Good boxing workout:
- Starry sky.
- My "immunity to synicism". I used to consider it as a drawback. Not any more. I will never become a cynic. At least I hope so...
- Absolutely gorgeous morning. I don't remember when the last time I looked out the window just staring at the sky not thinking about anything - but just enjoying the beautiful morning. I felt so great!
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Found the information on Internet I, honestly, didn't even hope to find;
- Good boxing workout:
- Starry sky.
- My "immunity to synicism". I used to consider it as a drawback. Not any more. I will never become a cynic. At least I hope so...
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I missed two days of positive focus, and my "life outlook" seems to be narrowing and catching negative stuff again.
I am back with my Day 13:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Workout;
- Finding some kind of balance again, and developing habit to see more of a challenge in obstacles rather than the end of the world and "total failure" stamp on my forehead and destiny;
- Nice healthy food;
- Warm and comfy bed that is waiting for me)
I am back with my Day 13:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Workout;
- Finding some kind of balance again, and developing habit to see more of a challenge in obstacles rather than the end of the world and "total failure" stamp on my forehead and destiny;
- Nice healthy food;
- Warm and comfy bed that is waiting for me)
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Day 14, and my positive focus is growing more sensitive to good stuff around:
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Very productive start of the day; and the entire day overall - managed to beat lots of distractions and stick to my goals;
- Managed to stick to my healthy eating plan - just exactly as it was planned! No overeating, no "emotional" food. Everything was delish and healthy;
- Beautiful autumn day, very windy though , so it was very romantique and picturesque when looking out of the window)
- Funny TV show to "unwind" my mind after intensive work;
- Meditation before falling asleep.
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Very productive start of the day; and the entire day overall - managed to beat lots of distractions and stick to my goals;
- Managed to stick to my healthy eating plan - just exactly as it was planned! No overeating, no "emotional" food. Everything was delish and healthy;
- Beautiful autumn day, very windy though , so it was very romantique and picturesque when looking out of the window)
- Funny TV show to "unwind" my mind after intensive work;
- Meditation before falling asleep.
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How in the world could I miss my positive focus yesterday when it was such a great day?
So, broad positive focus for Day 15;
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Rainy but still beautiful autumn day;
- Me smiling on my way to the Doc;
- Good news from the Doc;
- Managed to keep my nutrition as planned;
- Nice chat with my friend;
- Nice chat with my ex (really?)
- Positive outlook for the future;
- Great boxing workout;
- More SR;
- Meditation;
- My comfy bed and good sleep)
So, broad positive focus for Day 15;
- Coffee;
- SR;
- Rainy but still beautiful autumn day;
- Me smiling on my way to the Doc;
- Good news from the Doc;
- Managed to keep my nutrition as planned;
- Nice chat with my friend;
- Nice chat with my ex (really?)
- Positive outlook for the future;
- Great boxing workout;
- More SR;
- Meditation;
- My comfy bed and good sleep)
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Missed a couple of positive days. Time to get my "positive camera" back to work:
Day 16:
- Coffee;
- Wi-Fi router went on strike this morning - no Internet. Yes, you got it right - it's positive. Even though I didn't get my usual morning SR reading and writing. I enjoyed autumn colors looking out of window. I managed to do a lot of things in the morning. And I didn't freak out about that. And I fixed my router later. And I was so looking forward to my "SR treat"!
- Great mood - not because...just ... without any particular reason.. and that's the best part of it)
- Ex dropped my to discuss some business matters and brought me cashews, dates, and peaches )
- Found a lighter to lit up a vanilla aroma candle;
- Fridge is full of delicious healthy food;
- I am listening to beautiful music on youtube for free;
- There are people who are glad to meet me;
- Day by day, little by little, step by step, bit by bit I am feeling less victim and more in control of my life.
Day 16:
- Coffee;
- Wi-Fi router went on strike this morning - no Internet. Yes, you got it right - it's positive. Even though I didn't get my usual morning SR reading and writing. I enjoyed autumn colors looking out of window. I managed to do a lot of things in the morning. And I didn't freak out about that. And I fixed my router later. And I was so looking forward to my "SR treat"!
- Great mood - not because...just ... without any particular reason.. and that's the best part of it)
- Ex dropped my to discuss some business matters and brought me cashews, dates, and peaches )
- Found a lighter to lit up a vanilla aroma candle;
- Fridge is full of delicious healthy food;
- I am listening to beautiful music on youtube for free;
- There are people who are glad to meet me;
- Day by day, little by little, step by step, bit by bit I am feeling less victim and more in control of my life.
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A few days ago I got back home after my great sober vacations.
I've felt some weird mix of feelings since then - super relaxed, full of energy, and still lost.
Ok, that's a separate topic - lost on my way.
But today I am bringing my positive focus to enjoy the journey, and just to welcome with open mind and heart what's waiting me on my way:
- I am TWO YEARS SOBER TODAY!!!!!! That's freaking positive!
- I had super-great sober vacations;
- My friend made a recording of life jazz concert we listened to while on vacations. The guy who performed it at the next door hotel had a surprisingly great voice. I am listening to it now and enjoying it!
- Coffee!
- More coffee!
- SR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Delicious and HEALTHY breakfast made of coconut milk, banana, cocoa powder, and protein.
- Beautiful autumn day, sun is bright, trees are beautiful;
- Feeling new zest of energy in the morning. The Sun never fails to show up - neither my positive outlook)
Ok, not bad for now)
But I'll be back later.
I've felt some weird mix of feelings since then - super relaxed, full of energy, and still lost.
Ok, that's a separate topic - lost on my way.
But today I am bringing my positive focus to enjoy the journey, and just to welcome with open mind and heart what's waiting me on my way:
- I am TWO YEARS SOBER TODAY!!!!!! That's freaking positive!
- I had super-great sober vacations;
- My friend made a recording of life jazz concert we listened to while on vacations. The guy who performed it at the next door hotel had a surprisingly great voice. I am listening to it now and enjoying it!
- Coffee!
- More coffee!
- SR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Delicious and HEALTHY breakfast made of coconut milk, banana, cocoa powder, and protein.
- Beautiful autumn day, sun is bright, trees are beautiful;
- Feeling new zest of energy in the morning. The Sun never fails to show up - neither my positive outlook)
Ok, not bad for now)
But I'll be back later.
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