MB0329

I've been doing okay with the break up with my AXBF for the past few weeks, even refraining from initiating contact with him. However, I'm guilty of responding. Yesterday, he messaged me asking how my sick family member is doing and then today he messaged asking what we should do about the weekend getaway that we had booked for early April. He called to cancel the reservation and I decided that because it was a gift from his father and step-mother, they would be getting it back. Although I already knew that the trip wouldn't be happening, I allowed the whole discussion to make me fall apart. I'm right back to where I was a month ago.

I kind of unleashed and told him that I don't want to be strung along and that I hope he's actually working on the things he said needed to be worked on aka the reasons for the break up. He says that he's been drinking "much, much less," that he's just trying to be happy and that this hasn't been easy for him. I'm beating myself up right now for allowing myself to fall apart again ...

zoso77

Sometimes when these things happen, some good can come out of it.

When we give ourselves permission to do things that we really shouldn't do -- like being in contact with people we shouldn't be in contact with -- the end result usually isn't pleasant. And now that you've experienced this firsthand, you know it to be true.

So when you think about "going there" again, just remember the last time you "went there", and don't do it.

Ann

Wise words, what Zoso said. It took me many "lessons" to finally grasp the concept that "wanting" my son to be different would never make it so, I didn't have that power.

The lessons are painful but they bring us knowledge that will see us through more difficult times ahead.

I hope things get better for you soon.

Hugs