GoingThrough2

Sorry for that huge long story about my life.. LOL..
After I spilled it all out, I felt alot better and called my therapist who wanred me over a year ago that these issues would crop up and I would have to deal with them. She was right. I do everything the hard way. Live & Learn..
I am now in a 12 step program for Co-Dependancy.
Wish me luck & strength plz.
~Love, GT2~

Kindeyes

Much luck and much strength to you.

I believe that overcoming codependency is just as tough as overcoming addiction in many ways......I guess because I believe that codependency is just a form of addiction that involves a mindset and behaviors that are very difficult to correct. The difference is that our brains provide the chemical dependency.

gentle hugs
ke

neferkamichael

GoinTrough2, I wish you well, good luck.

laurie6781

I don't believe it was 'babbling'!

It is quite a rehash of some really terrible times for you and how far you have
come. I have ask the moderators if it is possible that it be added to our "Recovery
Story's" Forum so one may be contacting you.

It is a story of HOPE.

So, WELCOME to Sober Recovery!

I look forward to your ongoing posts of your experience strength and hope (ES&H).

I was 3 years sober to the day when my AA sponsor told me to get my azz to Alanon and to get an Alanon sponsor, preferably one that was also a double winner.

I did, I followed directions, lol kicking and screaming, but it has made such a big difference in my life, for the better!!

So, absolutely, if you would like to help yourself, give Alanon a try. You will get a whole different perspective on the 12 steps, I know I did.

Anyway, glad to have you.

Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing as we do care very much.

Love and hugs,

GoingThrough2

Thank you all,
I did AA for sometime.
Then I got into all sorts of emotional abuse type meetings.
I had to do all sorts of things to get and stay sober.
To learn and realize the roller coaster ride and why it was all happening.
I was learning so much so fast, more than 3/4 of it , now, I cant remember.
I have been in this new wonderful place with all my own things and happiness and peace for a bit over a year.
I have been isolating myself. Thinking this was part of my recovery from so much.
And it was to an extent.
I started realizing I was in some sort of funk after Friday when the XAH brought me some reconcilliation papers.
That spiraled me out of control.
That night I was here, reading some posts from others.
I was totally and completly reminded of so much.
Grateful and Thankful as I always am.
I think I do need to get back to AlAnon.. It was there where I first found my honest new family.
Yesterday, signing up for the 12 step co-dependancy meetings was a fresh start as well.

I have been told that I will grieve at some point.
( Not really looking foward to that! )
I have not yet grieved for the loss of 20 years, for the X and all his issues, the love, the hopes, the house and my two older sons which I had to let go of..
I realize I havent grieved.
Ahhh * big sigh * I know I'll be allright..
Thank you all for allowing me the time to be just me!
~Love, Gt2~