Too focused on himself???
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Too focused on himself???
So my boyfriend has only been home from treatment for two weeks now and he is taking his recovery seriously which is a good thing. We have had the whole discussion about how the matters of our relationship have to be put on the back-burner for alittle bit and I am okay with that, I understand. But it seems like everything has been all about him...to the point where he cuts me off almost every single time Im speaking. Ill be telling him about work or something and he just starts talking over me about something that happened in treatment or at one of his NA meetings or whatever. I was sick last week and its not like I need to be taken care of Im a big girl but it was like he didnt even care, didnt even say Im sorry you feel so crappy is there anything I can do for you. Is this normal??? Do I have to just suck it up and deal with this for a while?? He is a very caring person and I know he probably isnt even realizing that he is acting this way right now, but to me there is a difference between being focused on your recovery and being blatantly rude to other people, especially your girlfriend!
How about a program of recovery for yourself?!
Are there any Naranon or Alanon meetings in your area?
An excellent starter book to read is "Codependent No More" by Melody Beattie. It was a real eye-opener for me.
Are there any Naranon or Alanon meetings in your area?
An excellent starter book to read is "Codependent No More" by Melody Beattie. It was a real eye-opener for me.
He should be concentrating on recovery, but not to the point of being rude. You are right about that. Perhaps you can explain how you feel and see what he says. Maybe he's not conscious of how he's coming across, like you said. But, if he's not willing to listen, maybe you should step back from the relationship for a while.
So my boyfriend has only been home from treatment for two weeks now and he is taking his recovery seriously which is a good thing. We have had the whole discussion about how the matters of our relationship have to be put on the back-burner for alittle bit and I am okay with that, I understand. But it seems like everything has been all about him...to the point where he cuts me off almost every single time Im speaking. Ill be telling him about work or something and he just starts talking over me about something that happened in treatment or at one of his NA meetings or whatever. I was sick last week and its not like I need to be taken care of Im a big girl but it was like he didnt even care, didnt even say Im sorry you feel so crappy is there anything I can do for you. Is this normal??? Do I have to just suck it up and deal with this for a while?? He is a very caring person and I know he probably isnt even realizing that he is acting this way right now, but to me there is a difference between being focused on your recovery and being blatantly rude to other people, especially your girlfriend!
I am the Anti-Co-Dependent as it relates to marriages and relationships. Life is too short to waste time on the losers. They will bleed us until we have nothing left. The financial damage is the least of it. This is what happens when we peg our self worth to how someone else treats us.
It becomes a relationship of hopeful fantasy. It's a huge waste of time and emotion. We all have the right to be treated with respect and dignity. It's up to each of us to demand this from our relationships.
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Oh Alaia. Reading between the lines it sounds as if you feel some sort of responsibility for his relapse. He relapsed because he wanted to get high.
I am the Anti-Co-Dependent as it relates to marriages and relationships. Life is too short to waste time on the losers. They will bleed us until we have nothing left. The financial damage is the least of it. This is what happens when we peg our self worth to how someone else treats us.
It becomes a relationship of hopeful fantasy. It's a huge waste of time and emotion. We all have the right to be treated with respect and dignity. It's up to each of us to demand this from our relationships.
I am the Anti-Co-Dependent as it relates to marriages and relationships. Life is too short to waste time on the losers. They will bleed us until we have nothing left. The financial damage is the least of it. This is what happens when we peg our self worth to how someone else treats us.
It becomes a relationship of hopeful fantasy. It's a huge waste of time and emotion. We all have the right to be treated with respect and dignity. It's up to each of us to demand this from our relationships.
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I don't think "loser" was meant to be all addicts. It has to do with my relationship with my A. We are not married, we don't have children, and my A is not my child so there is nothing really binding me to the relationship except myself. I don't think it was meant as in insult.
Oh Alaia. Reading between the lines it sounds as if you feel some sort of responsibility for his relapse. He relapsed because he wanted to get high.
I am the Anti-Co-Dependent as it relates to marriages and relationships. Life is too short to waste time on the losers. They will bleed us until we have nothing left. The financial damage is the least of it. This is what happens when we peg our self worth to how someone else treats us.
It becomes a relationship of hopeful fantasy. It's a huge waste of time and emotion. We all have the right to be treated with respect and dignity. It's up to each of us to demand this from our relationships.
I am the Anti-Co-Dependent as it relates to marriages and relationships. Life is too short to waste time on the losers. They will bleed us until we have nothing left. The financial damage is the least of it. This is what happens when we peg our self worth to how someone else treats us.
It becomes a relationship of hopeful fantasy. It's a huge waste of time and emotion. We all have the right to be treated with respect and dignity. It's up to each of us to demand this from our relationships.
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I understand how you are feeling guilty...my BF told me yesterday that he is starting to realize that I am one of his biggest triggers right now and he understands why they say recovering addicts really shouldnt be in relationships for a while. But he also told me that its not me and its not that I have to change my behavior, he has to change the way he reacts to my behavior; he is the one allowing himself to be triggered by me. He said he still wants to be with me and work through this together but I cant help but feeling like I should just leave him for his sake. I feel like Im being selfish for wanting to stay with him, knowing that I am causing him stress and making him feel like he wants to do drugs. I dont know what to do, I dont want it to get to the point where he does relapse and end up in jail or on the streets or even worse, then I will really feel guilty. Last night we spent the night apart, I went to a friends house and he went to an NA meeting then hung out with one of his NA buddies. He called me on his way home and said he felt really good and he was really happy he got to spend time with his friend and talk. Im starting to think that maybe we can still technically be "together" but just spend more time apart for a while. Give him his space to go to meetings and hang out with sober friends and get as much help as possible but I just dont want us to drift as a couple. Really lost right now, seeing my therapist today, maybe she will have some insight.
The guilt will disapate when you accept that you have no control over him or his choices. His relapse is not about you and all about wanting to get high.
Acceptance is the real hard part because we own it.
That just gives you more freedom, if you will, to worry about yourself and LESS about him.
Look after you!!! Leave his recovery to him. If you can't deal..... set a time frame for how long you are willing to be put on the back burner and let him know.
Something that I find to be most frustrating, as well as, very telling - is when they show no interest in anyone other than themselves. That is a red flag for me. It got to the point that I was not being asked about anything in regards to me...... I just had to share without him asking. That just fed my pocket of feeling rejected and un-loved........ especially when so many other people would be interested in me and how / what I was doing.
I remember noticing that my exah.... started FINALLY asking just about me.... and being genuinely interested. It took YEARSSSS, but he finally saw the reward in listening and learning to others to help gain insight about himself.
My nana always told me a still tongue keeps a wise head. Sometimes it's best to just shut up and listen!!!!!!!
I don't know if this is my perception of recovery - but what I have learned is that in NA/AA...... the addicts learn to listen and help other people. And codies/ alanon learn to listen and help themselves.
Stay close to your recovery.....
Look after you!!! Leave his recovery to him. If you can't deal..... set a time frame for how long you are willing to be put on the back burner and let him know.
Something that I find to be most frustrating, as well as, very telling - is when they show no interest in anyone other than themselves. That is a red flag for me. It got to the point that I was not being asked about anything in regards to me...... I just had to share without him asking. That just fed my pocket of feeling rejected and un-loved........ especially when so many other people would be interested in me and how / what I was doing.
I remember noticing that my exah.... started FINALLY asking just about me.... and being genuinely interested. It took YEARSSSS, but he finally saw the reward in listening and learning to others to help gain insight about himself.
My nana always told me a still tongue keeps a wise head. Sometimes it's best to just shut up and listen!!!!!!!
I don't know if this is my perception of recovery - but what I have learned is that in NA/AA...... the addicts learn to listen and help other people. And codies/ alanon learn to listen and help themselves.
Stay close to your recovery.....
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