Angelic17

Winnie, I truly understand your dream about your teeth falling out. I have had that dream also. It's horrible. I dreamt that dream a few years back. I remember looking it up in a dream book, and it meant ill health. So, this is a warning for you to take better care of yourself. You have to take care of you no matter what your son does. Your life is not any less important than his life. The problem is that your such a good mom, and you love your son so much, that there is no easy way for you to get through this crisis. This is a crisis, and it is heart wrenching to say the least. He is only 16 and that's even harder, cause he's just a young kid. However, there is alot of hope for your son. He can turn his life around. He has to do it though. If we could fix our kids, none of us mom's would be here. All of our kids would be fine, and we would be at the spa. Better days are coming, Hang on. Your not alone. Take this time in Florida to relax in the warm sunshine. Bless You

cece1960

See, there's an HP looking after you, nudging and TELLING you to take time for yourself Don't you love when that happens?

Seren

Have a great time!!!

winnie12

So tomorrow we have a our counseling session to talk about all these issues. i didnt visit friday nor will i be visiting today - i need a third party there to go over all of this and keep it on target. I plan to explain to him that i see i've been enabling him and going along with things i'm not comfortable with - that i'm not doing that anymore (its not about him this time its me). he's going to be very angry so i'm just going to let him know that he can be mad if he chooses and we can take time away from each other. honestly i really dont care about seeing him right now - i'll just take cues from the counselor on that one.

so i guess tomorrow i find out if i'm going to be a grandma or not - lets all pray its NOT. i'm just not ready for that yet. i'm pretty pleased that i've kept my crazy emotional level down on that topic but i know its affecting me because the nightmares are getting worse.

he did have a counselor call me yesterday to tell me he needed insulin - typically the nurse would let me know when he is running low so i think it was just a way to play my emotions by reminding me he is diabetic. I'm going to talk to the nurse beforehand and find out if he was really low on meds or just trying to manipulate me again. if its manipulation then i've got to address that with the counselor and get some tips on how to stop that. he doesnt care about his diabetes but expects me to jump up and run over there at a moments notice in a panic.

Above all i pray that i'm calm tomorrow and speak with wisdom and strength.

Impurrfect

(((Winnie)))

I, too, will pray for wisdom and strength for you tomorrow. I've been praying for your AS, but have to admit my prayer is along the lines of "will you make this kid BEHAVE..he needs it and so does his mama?!?!" Not my best prayer, I admit, but God knows what I mean.

I hope you and dd can find something fun to do today. After all the rain we've had, it's nice to get out without the umbrella!

Hugs and prayers!

Amy