jan123

Compared to so many others who have it far worse than I do especially parents of addicts or people who have lost loved ones due to to drug related deaths, my complaints are small and really not worth mentioning.

But I know it helps to share bad days. I had my grandson over last weekend and took care of him for the day. A special treat for me. He turned one in November and is into everything. I remember pulling out some blankets from under my bed to put in his playpen for his nap. After he left, I just left the blankets on the side of my bed on the floor. Yesterday I went to fold them and I found a fresh new ball of chore boy rolled up ready for the pipe. It just took me back and brought forward a lot of emotions. My ex has been gone for a year now, the last time I saw him was about four months ago when he came here to tell me that he just got out of rehab, and to borrow money. I don't think rehab worked out for him, as everything had been cleaned up after he initially left.

I have the chore boy in a place where I can see it to remind me of the lies and betrayal, and I am grateful that my little one didn't find it before me as everything still goes into his mouth. I thank HP for allowing me to spend time with my grandson without a crack addict in my home, for if that was the case, my children would not allow me to see him here, and take care of him.


Everyone, I hope you are having a beautiful Sunday and thank you for listening.

Jan

Spiritual Seeker

You have moved on. Look how much you have to be grateful for.

Ann

Sometimes those "reminders" make me even more grateful for the life that is mine today.

Your little grandson is lucky to have a grandma like you and quite blessed to be able to live a life that doesn't include addiction.

Hugs

rozied

Dear Jan, I am meeting you for the 1st time, my name is Diane & welcome. Seeing your grandson is a wonderful treat. I know my hubby & I are helping our 35yr old son raise his 2 little ones. He is a single dad & they are the joy of our life.
Diane

jan123

I called my son the other day, and while he was on the phone he asked my grandson to say "hi to Nana". He then said "Hiyooh Nana" and my heart just broke with love. I am so sad that my ex does not have the capability to see the reality of love. How I think of him as the "walking dead" as far as emotions are concerned. It is so sad that addicts have lost out on such simple pleasures as friends like all of you who hold the hands of each other, family, and just life in general. HP be with them.

BBD

Hi jan, It sure is great having the little ones to watch. I enjoy my grandkids so much and can't imagine not seeing them.....It sounds like your life is on the right path and your head is certainly thinking in the right direction. Thank goodness we have the chance to make our lives a happy place to be... Hugs, Bonnie

Serenity Bound

Hi Jan, I have to say that the little ones are the blessings that I am grateful for every single day. My 2 little grand-daughters are what have helped to keep me sane. Thank God for them.

One is 6, the other will be 1 yr on 2/11....and boy does she keep me running LOL, I love it!

So glad you are able to enjoy yours.
Hugs,
Chris