Clarity came in the form of a grasshopper today
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Clarity came in the form of a grasshopper today
I don't think I could put into words what it felt like during the years of being lied to daily, abused, threatened, disnissed, kicked to the curb, totally unloved-and still hanging on for a thread of good to come along. Holding on so tight.
Tonight after I got I to my car to drive home from work I noticed a huge (seriously, like GMO huge!) green grasshopper sitting on my windshield. I figure, ok buddy, have a nice short ride bc I'm getting on the freeway-you'll fly away soon enough. Well, the entire car ride home, freeway and all, this giant bug is sitting on my windshield-other bugs hitting it, the wind pelting it and pulling back it's wings, it's poor legs trembling to hang on as I wizzed home from work-it looked like a freak of nature at one point, barely recognizable-I'm sitting in my car literally screaming at it to just hop off....it was trying for dear life to hold on to the windshield....until....it spread it's wings and flew off as I exited the freeway.
Great analogy to what life was like with my AH. Holding on for dear life to the very thing that was killing me. All I ever had to so was spread my wings and fly away and hop off the crazy train. Seems so simple when I look back on things now.
God is great at these little reminders-don't think I've ever had an aha moment in my car like I did today. Very humbling and kind of surreal.
Thanks for listening, y'all
Tonight after I got I to my car to drive home from work I noticed a huge (seriously, like GMO huge!) green grasshopper sitting on my windshield. I figure, ok buddy, have a nice short ride bc I'm getting on the freeway-you'll fly away soon enough. Well, the entire car ride home, freeway and all, this giant bug is sitting on my windshield-other bugs hitting it, the wind pelting it and pulling back it's wings, it's poor legs trembling to hang on as I wizzed home from work-it looked like a freak of nature at one point, barely recognizable-I'm sitting in my car literally screaming at it to just hop off....it was trying for dear life to hold on to the windshield....until....it spread it's wings and flew off as I exited the freeway.
Great analogy to what life was like with my AH. Holding on for dear life to the very thing that was killing me. All I ever had to so was spread my wings and fly away and hop off the crazy train. Seems so simple when I look back on things now.
God is great at these little reminders-don't think I've ever had an aha moment in my car like I did today. Very humbling and kind of surreal.
Thanks for listening, y'all
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Thanks, FoG. I needed that reminder today, especially this:
"Holding on for dear life to the very thing that was killing me. All I ever had to so was spread my wings and fly away and hop off the crazy train. "
Also your anecdote reminds me of a wonderful poem, "The Summer Day," by Mary Oliver:
The Summer Day, by Mary Oliver - Poem 133 | Poetry 180: A Poem a Day for American High Schools, Hosted by Billy Collins, U.S. Poet Laureate, 2001-2003 (Poetry and Literature, Library of Congress)
"Holding on for dear life to the very thing that was killing me. All I ever had to so was spread my wings and fly away and hop off the crazy train. "
Also your anecdote reminds me of a wonderful poem, "The Summer Day," by Mary Oliver:
The Summer Day, by Mary Oliver - Poem 133 | Poetry 180: A Poem a Day for American High Schools, Hosted by Billy Collins, U.S. Poet Laureate, 2001-2003 (Poetry and Literature, Library of Congress)
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