It all got done a day early!! It's over!
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It all got done a day early!! It's over!
my higher power, my Jesus, kicked in hard for me today!! I was supposed to let my friend hand off ducky boys stuff tomorrow, but then said she had to leave town so it was now or never. Long story short, God provided a van, help carrying an AC unit and I found the exact vac that I wanted on clearance!!!! Mother ducker took the one she gave me back.
I had spent the night before reading lots of Louise Hay and watching Oprah talk about The Secret. I know lots of people think it's bunk, but I get it. We know that the addicts in our lives aren't the beginning and end of love and romance in the world, but as long as I hold on, that's what I'm saying to God. I'm saying that love is finite, that it can only be found in others. All the while he's trying to hand me blessing and I stand there with my angry clenched fists holding ducky boy by the collar.
Well last night I unclenched my fists and let him go. I opened my hands a reached out to grab hold of all the good God could provide in every area of my life. And I made room in my head and heart with thoughts of gratitude. I looked in the mirror and told myself I deserved good!
When I saw his parents, I just hugged them and said "tell ducky boy I wish him a good recovery and a good life". That was it. I then sent ducky boy a text saying that the final page has been turned and the book is closed. That despite the pain, I will ever be grateful for the lessons I've learned by being with him. Don't care if he responds. I don't need closure from him, I needed it from me.
Now for the next story. . . Once upon a time there was a strong, confident woman who was not afraid of the world and lived her life on her own terms. She had some dark days in her past, but today she was happy, finally she was happy! Happy and grateful and free!!!
I had spent the night before reading lots of Louise Hay and watching Oprah talk about The Secret. I know lots of people think it's bunk, but I get it. We know that the addicts in our lives aren't the beginning and end of love and romance in the world, but as long as I hold on, that's what I'm saying to God. I'm saying that love is finite, that it can only be found in others. All the while he's trying to hand me blessing and I stand there with my angry clenched fists holding ducky boy by the collar.
Well last night I unclenched my fists and let him go. I opened my hands a reached out to grab hold of all the good God could provide in every area of my life. And I made room in my head and heart with thoughts of gratitude. I looked in the mirror and told myself I deserved good!
When I saw his parents, I just hugged them and said "tell ducky boy I wish him a good recovery and a good life". That was it. I then sent ducky boy a text saying that the final page has been turned and the book is closed. That despite the pain, I will ever be grateful for the lessons I've learned by being with him. Don't care if he responds. I don't need closure from him, I needed it from me.
Now for the next story. . . Once upon a time there was a strong, confident woman who was not afraid of the world and lived her life on her own terms. She had some dark days in her past, but today she was happy, finally she was happy! Happy and grateful and free!!!
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You're well on your way to a much brighter future now, Ducky because you loved yourself that much ! You should feel really proud of yourself ! There's a whole new world just waiting for you to embrace it and I know you will !
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Fantastic! I'm excited for you Ducky. You're shedding the past in a positive way. Good things are going for happen for you. I just know it.
(btw: Have you told that stupid boss where he can shove it yet?)
(btw: Have you told that stupid boss where he can shove it yet?)
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YAY!! That is an inspiring story Ducky 
I am so glad I have met you. Hugs to you <3
on a side note Ducky: I kind of did the same. as you know I changed all my info and moved so X cannot get a hold of me, but yesterday I wrote out on a paper all the $ he owes me, and I wrote it all out to the cent and on what dates it was borrowed or taken, and next to each # i wrote balance is Zero $ and I signed and dated each line. and I put a sticky on it that said : we are no longer tied to each other, go in peace. Thanks for the life lesson learned. and that was it. That was the final piece to the puzzle of letting go.
you are amazing duckygirl
I am so glad I have met you. Hugs to you <3on a side note Ducky: I kind of did the same. as you know I changed all my info and moved so X cannot get a hold of me, but yesterday I wrote out on a paper all the $ he owes me, and I wrote it all out to the cent and on what dates it was borrowed or taken, and next to each # i wrote balance is Zero $ and I signed and dated each line. and I put a sticky on it that said : we are no longer tied to each other, go in peace. Thanks for the life lesson learned. and that was it. That was the final piece to the puzzle of letting go.
you are amazing
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Hey Duckygirl how exciting you get start a fresh to start a new chapter in the story of your life. Be free and happy and most of all NEVER settle . You are worth too much for that. High five girlfriend 👋
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