Mamamacx2

I have been divorced for over 2 years and I have been in this relationship for almost a year and a half. I must admit though, I do love alcoholics!! I went from one right into the arms of another!! I stayed at first for this reason......I figured it was probably best for me to stick with what I have, at least this one doesn't hit me and can be very sweet, and work on my Alanon program. I am trying to focus on my and work on my issues because if I leave I can pretty much guarantee, as much as I hate to, that I will again fall for another addict. I like to say that I will be independent and not look at men and only focus on myself, but I know me. I have my kids only half the time and I will start dating again.

It's funny because my boyfriend is the one who basically sent me to this page. He told me to google recovery and that I would see that his behavior is normal. The thing I am finding out is exactly what I thought. It is NOT!!

I really do want a man who cares for and loves me. Not because I need it, but because I want companionship. But more importantly I have learned that I need to fix myself and love myself first. I need to continue to rely on my higher power and work my program. While his addiction is alcohol, mine is the alcoholic.