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He abused his body so bad he died. He died in July and has left me with a mess...a house and car to unload, probate to deal with, his poor mom who is 80 and shouldn't have to bury her son. There are no heirs and no will.
His mom lives two states away so with no relatives.....it's me. It is like a "screw you"from the grave.
As I have been cleaning out, I have come across his emails to many hookers, flings, dating profiles on xxx websites, nasty boy emails to a college president he once dated while we were together, photos of his privates and numerous other lady privates, and word from a coworker that someone in the office was getting ready to file a sexual harassment complaint. I am so angry.
I know he stuck around while I had cancer treatments. So now I feel guilty and angry.
Sigh. Thanks for reading.
His mom lives two states away so with no relatives.....it's me. It is like a "screw you"from the grave.
As I have been cleaning out, I have come across his emails to many hookers, flings, dating profiles on xxx websites, nasty boy emails to a college president he once dated while we were together, photos of his privates and numerous other lady privates, and word from a coworker that someone in the office was getting ready to file a sexual harassment complaint. I am so angry.
I know he stuck around while I had cancer treatments. So now I feel guilty and angry.
Sigh. Thanks for reading.
It's sad that you have to deal with all of that, BG. Have you been able to find a grief support group or some other support? It's a lot of stress to have to do all of the cleaning up and cleaning out along with sorting thru all of your feelings.
Keep on venting here. There are more than you might know who have experience to share. And we're here to listen and lend a shoulder when you need it.
Keep on venting here. There are more than you might know who have experience to share. And we're here to listen and lend a shoulder when you need it.
I can only imagine how heartbreaking this must be ~
as wise people have share before - please remember none of what you find has anything to do with you ~ it was about him and his demons ~ please don't allow his disease, issues and pain to destroy you with your hurt and anger ~
vent about it, seek counseling, healing and allow yourself to be free as he was never able to do ~
just my thoughts and suggestions ~
you deserve the peace
pink hugs,
Rita
as wise people have share before - please remember none of what you find has anything to do with you ~ it was about him and his demons ~ please don't allow his disease, issues and pain to destroy you with your hurt and anger ~
vent about it, seek counseling, healing and allow yourself to be free as he was never able to do ~
just my thoughts and suggestions ~
you deserve the peace
pink hugs,
Rita
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Yeah, I know the feeling, although I was still married to him at the time. Well if you're gonna embrace hedonism, why not go all the way with it? YUCK.
Funny thing is, those men are always the worst lovers.
Yeah, he stuck around while you had cancer treatments. He wasn't the devil incarnate, he had a compassionate side. Life is gray, not black or white.
You sure don't have to choose to feel guilty about it though.
Funny thing is, those men are always the worst lovers.
Yeah, he stuck around while you had cancer treatments. He wasn't the devil incarnate, he had a compassionate side. Life is gray, not black or white.
You sure don't have to choose to feel guilty about it though.
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Birdgurl, I'm so sorry you're having to go through this and after reading your post I feel that not so far down the road I will be writing something very similiar. I too have survived cancer and we will survive this as well. Praying that God gives you peace.
So very, very sorry. Loss is hard enough, on top of everything else you've been trough.... My heart goes out to you in a big way. Hope you can find someone to walk with you through this process - don't try to do it alone. Huge hugs to you.
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