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Even on my weakest days



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1m8GSnIkxPMhttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1m8GSnIkxPM




Woke up late today and I still feel the sting of the pain
But I brushed my teeth anyway
I got dressed through the mess and put a smile on my face
I got a little bit stronger

Riding in the car to work and I'm trying to ignore the hurt
So I turned on the radio, stupid song made me think of you
I listened to it for minute but I changed it
I'm getting a little bit stronger, just a little bit stronger

And I'm done hoping that we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger

Doesn't happen overnight but you turn around
And a month's gone by and you realize you haven't cried
I'm not giving you a hour or a second or another minute longer
I'm busy getting stronger
(From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/s/sara-e...er-lyrics.html)

And I'm done hoping that we can work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking, that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger

Getting along without you, baby
I'm better off without you, baby
How does it feel without me, baby?
I'm getting stronger without you, baby

And I'm done hoping we could work it out
I'm done with how it feels, spinning my wheels
Letting you drag my heart around
And, oh, I'm done thinking that you could ever change

I know my heart will never be the same
But I'm telling myself I'll be okay
Even on my weakest days
I get a little bit stronger

I get a little bit stronger
Just a little bit stronger
A little bit, a little bit, a little bit stronger
I get a little bit stronger

marie678

I love that song! She also has another song specifically about being with an alcoholic. I think it's called "a few more beers" or something like that.

marie678

And it definitely portrays what we go through after all the hurt. Sometimes it takes a while to pick up the pieces, but the important thing is just that we do pick them up. =)

StarCat

I looked for it. It's called "What That Drink Cost Me."
YouTube - 08 What That Drink Cost Me - Sara Evans
This one has me in tears now, so be warned.

10X, thank you so much for sharing that other one. It is a powerful song.
I think I'll go listen to it again.

GettingBy

I LOVE Sara Evans... that song is my theme lately. Even my daughter sings it on top of her lungs now! She says, "Oh Mommy!!! They're playing OUR SONG!"

marie678

Yep, that's it! It's been a while since I listened to it now, but it really hits home for me.

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This is where I am. I don't usually listen to country music, usually use pandora in the car but I have moved home where there is no 3g services and I was channel surfing and probably was given this song from God above.

Still at my parents. Had a couple of job interviews, still waiting.

Xabf calls daily, sometimes multiple times daily. TOday I told him it was too much and I needed some time and space.

He is tearful, sounds sober for the last week, complains that he is lonely. Complains that he misses us. Keeps asking if we will have a second chance. He forgets that only a week ago, he drunk dialed me so many times, beligerantly drunk. He forgets that he checked himself out of rehab. He forgets that I had to leave, because he wouldn't stay sober for even a day and I was living with the kids in hotels. He claims that he is going to AA daily. Last night he called and I called back later, he was at the corner bar, supposedly just havng a sandwich and a coke.

I stick by my needing space and time. I know the focus needs to be on me and dd right now. I told him that this has nothing to do with him, it's about me. That idea seems to confuse him LMAO.

I am getting stronger though.