My moment of weakness

Old 07-23-2010, 11:35 AM
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My moment of weakness

I just wanna go find an empty room where I can ball my fists up and scream at the top of lungs how unfair it is that my husband has a monster inside of him that he cannot control.
I just wanna hold my breath and press my face into my pillow until I pass out in hopes I can edit my memory of all the hurt and pain and just remember the man I know he can be.
I wanna punch the walls until I bleed to numb the sickening pain inside of me.
I wanna destroy everything material around me to cease the realization that I am powerless against his addiction.
I wanna cry till I fall asleep from the guilt of what I have let my children go through.
I wanna fall to the ground in defeat cause I know I am not winning
But I cant do any of it, I WONT DO ANY OF IT.
I just needed to have my moment of weakness because only when you admit your weakness can your strength renew!
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Old 07-23-2010, 11:58 AM
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I know that feeling...but I do get my frustrations the cemetry...LOL, I know you think its funny but my late husband is out there, and that is where I am about cleaning or KICK boxing? something to get it out...but I agree...its overwhelming....
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