kokobum

What happened to my smile?
It's been gone now for a while.
My job requires me to be happy
Despite the fact my life is so crappy!!

You subject me to a life of hell,
Yet I somehow can't focus on getting well.
I wish I could ignore the pain,
And realize it's time to heal again!!

My life around me collapses,
As my wife constantly relapses..
Back to her alcoholic haze,
My nights are hell and so are my days.

I'm on the verge of a breakdown,
As you try again to take me down...
The road that's never ending,
A road that allows no mending.

You'd think I'd learn after all these years,
Yet my weekends are still filled with tears.
Deep down, I guess, I still believe...
You'll get the help you need to receive.

As my head spins wildly with confusion,
I can only come to one conclusion....
It's time for me to wake up....
Time for us to breakup.

I need to find my smile again.
Before it's gone forever.
Life would be so much better then,
If we're no longer together!!

Thin line between love and hate,
Your sobriety can no longer wait,
No more waiting until tomorrow.
You've already caused way too much sorrow!!

almattie

WHat a beautiful poem, full of your feelings. I am truly saddened that you have to go through this. I feel your pain and sorrow. I work so hard during the week looking forward to my weekend and every weekend I get home and wish I was back at work. Keep moving forward and know that you have someone you could talk to.

wpgwoman

Hey kokobum,

Beautiful poem, sadly it describes my life too.

Stay strong, I'm sending my prayers and support across the "prairies"

Wpg

kelsh

Hi kokobum,

That is a truly beautiful poem. I have always wished I could express my feelings in such a poem. :comfort

I am the alcoholic wife & Mom but found my way to sobriety quite a few years ago. I put my husband through most of the same things you describe in your poem. We ended up divorced but by some miracle after we both retired, we remarried again & have a very good life together.

Our life was like the song: "A Bridge Over Troubled Waters"....a lot of our life went under that bridge. :caveman

I truly hope your wife can wake up and see the light...it is something you can't do yourself. She has to want sobriety and go for help herself. The more my husband pressured me, the more I wanted to escape from our marriage, which I did in the 1970's. :praying

I wish you all the luck and remember you have to take care of yourself and your wife has to find her way herself.

kelsh