We Refuse To Give Up!!! Dedicated by Vic To His Friend Denise
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We Refuse To Give Up!!! Dedicated by Vic To His Friend Denise
That is right! I refuse to give up trying to do this deal. I will not give up no matter how long it takes. I have done this deal before and I know that I can damn well do it again. I am going to fight this damn thing (disease) with all that I have and I know also with the help of SR and all of you good people that I too can have sobriety. I haven't used now for almost 24 hours. Don't sound like a lot but for me here lately it seems like an eternity.
I am going to need a lot of support here, and I am sure that I will get it also. NOPE NEVER GIVE UP!! Together we can do anything, so I am asking, begging, reaching OUT, HELP ME! I need to be accountable here, each day! I am going to do this deal, I have to, I need to, I want to.....
I know that I have not put forth my best effort here, and I am not going to give in to self today. I am going to work on changing a lot of things here. If anyone has any suggestions, then bring them on. I am going to go to a meeting here that is called a RELAPSE MEETING, that I helped to start years ago. I quit going to it, but I feel as if I need to be accountable for that meeting as well. Anyway, just wanted to let everyone know where I am today. But more important is where WE are going. Thanks
Love Vic
I am going to need a lot of support here, and I am sure that I will get it also. NOPE NEVER GIVE UP!! Together we can do anything, so I am asking, begging, reaching OUT, HELP ME! I need to be accountable here, each day! I am going to do this deal, I have to, I need to, I want to.....
I know that I have not put forth my best effort here, and I am not going to give in to self today. I am going to work on changing a lot of things here. If anyone has any suggestions, then bring them on. I am going to go to a meeting here that is called a RELAPSE MEETING, that I helped to start years ago. I quit going to it, but I feel as if I need to be accountable for that meeting as well. Anyway, just wanted to let everyone know where I am today. But more important is where WE are going. Thanks
Love Vic
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OK then, I like this Vic.
Let me know how the relapse meeting goes. PS - ever read "Getting Sober" by Gorski & Miller? The kids' rehab used it as a workbook for chronic relapsers. You can get it on Amazon, but it's been around forever, so you might find copies at the Goodwill, too.
(((Vic)))
Let me know how the relapse meeting goes. PS - ever read "Getting Sober" by Gorski & Miller? The kids' rehab used it as a workbook for chronic relapsers. You can get it on Amazon, but it's been around forever, so you might find copies at the Goodwill, too.
(((Vic)))
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Thanks Big Sis and Anna!!! Yep that is what I am doing is moving forward...and I am not turning back...NOPE I refuse to give up. I was thinking (of course that isn't my best thing) that would be a hell of a bus! The "I REFUSE TO GIVE UP BUS" ....OK enough of that I think we have enough anyway.. I do however think that I might as well try to keep this going. Maybe I should just get out of the way and let God take over......
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[Vic]. Great big hug.
You've likely heard it before: we only stop drinking(using) when we're about to lose something we value more than the booze(drug).
Are you there?
For me it was self-esteem, my opinion of myself as progressive. My last drink was from a communion chalice.
I'm keeping this short on purpose. Repetition isn't always helpful.
I've been sober over 17 years. Remember, I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together.
You've likely heard it before: we only stop drinking(using) when we're about to lose something we value more than the booze(drug).
Are you there?
For me it was self-esteem, my opinion of myself as progressive. My last drink was from a communion chalice.
I'm keeping this short on purpose. Repetition isn't always helpful.
I've been sober over 17 years. Remember, I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together.
JUST DO IT!!
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Originally Posted by hector
[Vic]. Great big hug. You've likely heard it before: I've been sober over 17 years. Remember, I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together.
we only stop drinking(using) when we're about to lose something we value more than the booze(drug). Are you there?
I used to be someone that anyone would count on my WORD and lately my word doesn't mean sh!t! Well, I don't give a damn, I am going to be that person again that MY WORD means what I say. I know that I can do it and yes it probably is like YOU the self-worth. I know that I can do it, I AM GOING TO DO IT> Thanks for your support, I really need all the help that I can get here.
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Originally Posted by hector
You've likely heard it before: we only stop drinking(using) when we're about to lose something we value more than the booze(drug). Are you there?
I was just tending gardens and felt compelled to break (it wasn't just because it started raining either...I don't melt in the rain.) Sitting down here at the computer I noticed a new pen had landed here on this desk (I did not put it there!) with words scribed on the cap. They read:
He is no fool who gives up what he cannot keep in order to gain what he cannot lose.
Stunned. I've spent this day again (as always) debating which way to go. The relentless ongoing battle of mind. Calling up SR to find this SAME CONCEPT posted by Hector...just phrased differently...drives home the point.
We are being led, instructed and care-fully directed, through words and ideas and kind caring persuasive guidance resounding across the wavelengths, to take the only real option we have...if we are to survive, if we are to ever know peace. Why continue to struggle and fight against it. Let go of the addiction so to be free to live.
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Hi, Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.
Thanks for sharing Vic.
There are all kinds of reasons why people have come into AA. Me was thru family intervention after alcohol stopped working for me. In the late stages of my disease the progression was very rapid. Altho, i couldnt see it at the time, i look back at my actions and behavior to tell the story. I use to go to a local club to listen to music...that was my excuse.....Really it was to escape my lonely at home mom syndrome. I wanted to have fun and i wanted to be around people that drank like I did. Id go when i had the kids settled at night and stay sometimes till the club closed. Hmmmmm....Doesnt sound very good for a mom to do. Then i would drive home in a numb state, racing people on the road or driving up the road the wrong way....Its a wonder I didnt kill someone.
However in Feb 90, i almost killed myself by running of the road hitting a concrete culvert sitting on top the ground. That sent me to the hospital for 10 with them removing my spleen are else i would have bled to death.
Then after healing quite well, in Aug 90 i was right back at the bar doing the same thing. I came home numb again followed by a horrible arguement and it was there i hit my bottom. Out of desperation i down a hand full of pills and off to bed i went.....I told my husband that i was tired and maybe i just art to kill myself....well he thought i was bluffing and told me to just go to bed....
Wrong....I'll fix u i told myself....Anyway....the next morning i heard a faint ringing of the phone which allowed me to move to answer it. Even tho it was my mother in Law....i still think of it today as my Higher Power calling me to get up and that he wasnt thru with me yet.
The next steps that were taken was my family doing for me what i couldnt do for myself. They did a family intervention on me. The police car came to take me away to rehab for 28 days. There i recieved the tools of recovery to help me and guide me on a day by day bases to stay sober.
Today, i continue on my journey sharing my own experiences, strengths and hope with others that was so freely share with me over the yrs. It's that continous cycle of sharing, belief, fellowship, caring, understanding, and guidance that keeps me sober today.
Remember from the very beginning, the DESIRE to stay sober. Remembering to stay sober for myself and no one else. Remembering the tools of recovery...the 12 Steps to follow. Remembering the suggestions given by those sober before me. Remembering to take it one day at a time.
Learning humility...by getting of my high horse and walking not in front of u or behind u, but along side u as we all travel along the same road of recovery learning how to be Happy, joyous and Free.
Thanks for letting me share.
Thanks for sharing Vic.
There are all kinds of reasons why people have come into AA. Me was thru family intervention after alcohol stopped working for me. In the late stages of my disease the progression was very rapid. Altho, i couldnt see it at the time, i look back at my actions and behavior to tell the story. I use to go to a local club to listen to music...that was my excuse.....Really it was to escape my lonely at home mom syndrome. I wanted to have fun and i wanted to be around people that drank like I did. Id go when i had the kids settled at night and stay sometimes till the club closed. Hmmmmm....Doesnt sound very good for a mom to do. Then i would drive home in a numb state, racing people on the road or driving up the road the wrong way....Its a wonder I didnt kill someone.
However in Feb 90, i almost killed myself by running of the road hitting a concrete culvert sitting on top the ground. That sent me to the hospital for 10 with them removing my spleen are else i would have bled to death.
Then after healing quite well, in Aug 90 i was right back at the bar doing the same thing. I came home numb again followed by a horrible arguement and it was there i hit my bottom. Out of desperation i down a hand full of pills and off to bed i went.....I told my husband that i was tired and maybe i just art to kill myself....well he thought i was bluffing and told me to just go to bed....
Wrong....I'll fix u i told myself....Anyway....the next morning i heard a faint ringing of the phone which allowed me to move to answer it. Even tho it was my mother in Law....i still think of it today as my Higher Power calling me to get up and that he wasnt thru with me yet.
The next steps that were taken was my family doing for me what i couldnt do for myself. They did a family intervention on me. The police car came to take me away to rehab for 28 days. There i recieved the tools of recovery to help me and guide me on a day by day bases to stay sober.
Today, i continue on my journey sharing my own experiences, strengths and hope with others that was so freely share with me over the yrs. It's that continous cycle of sharing, belief, fellowship, caring, understanding, and guidance that keeps me sober today.
Remember from the very beginning, the DESIRE to stay sober. Remembering to stay sober for myself and no one else. Remembering the tools of recovery...the 12 Steps to follow. Remembering the suggestions given by those sober before me. Remembering to take it one day at a time.
Learning humility...by getting of my high horse and walking not in front of u or behind u, but along side u as we all travel along the same road of recovery learning how to be Happy, joyous and Free.
Thanks for letting me share.
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Originally Posted by luckyv2
I am going to need a lot of support here, and I am sure that I will get it also. NOPE NEVER GIVE UP!! Together we can do anything, Amen Vic so I am asking, begging, reaching OUT, HELP ME! I need to be accountable here, each day! I am going to do this deal, I have to, I need to, I want to.....
Hugs, walking along side of you........Denise
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Originally Posted by wingsfree
That's the spirit Vic......soooo happy you're ok.
Hugs, walking along side of you........Denise
Hugs, walking along side of you........Denise
I am so glad to see ya that is for sure! Now you need to email me so I have your email address again...That goes for everyone since I have a new computer. NOW DENISE...you better get that butt of yours on the DQ...We have all been missing you that is for sure...Oh yeah for old time sake
Denise :slap: Vic
He is no fool who gives up what he cannot keep in order to gain what he cannot lose.
(((((Sharon)))))
THANK YOU!! Your words bring encouragement on this side of the cyber, knowing that I too can walk beside you and countless others. Reaching, grabbing a hold of each others hands.
Laura so glad that your around. I hope that all is going well with you!
OK NOT GIVING UP HERE....getting some cleaning done really
I wish I had a maid
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Originally Posted by 2dayzmuse
Fight with everything you've got Vic!
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Originally Posted by abtchonamission
(((((((((Vic)))))))))
I knew you had it in you...you're too special to give up.
I knew you had it in you...you're too special to give up.
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Originally Posted by BSPGirl
Best of luck, Vic! 
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Hi Vic,
Time is short, but just wanted to add my voice to those that are happy you are still in the fight!!! I'm on my latest day 6 here, but it's six days I didn't give in.
I wish you a happy and successful weekend, I hope your weather is a great as ours has been, get out and do something! Have a friend drive you 10 mi from town, and leave you, that will insure you a good nights rest...lol.
Keep us posted, and 'cmon, keep it simple, lets look for more good days than bad to start with.
Take care!
Steve
Time is short, but just wanted to add my voice to those that are happy you are still in the fight!!! I'm on my latest day 6 here, but it's six days I didn't give in.
I wish you a happy and successful weekend, I hope your weather is a great as ours has been, get out and do something! Have a friend drive you 10 mi from town, and leave you, that will insure you a good nights rest...lol.
Keep us posted, and 'cmon, keep it simple, lets look for more good days than bad to start with.
Take care!
Steve
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