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I am trying to be sober from alcohol again. I struggle to get past the first month but I've done it this time and am a month and 3 days sober.. Now i'm struggling though. The memories of the pancreatitis or withdrawals have faded and the main issue is I'm lonely, hence the name. I have bipolar and im currently depressed, which means im not enjoying anything and the days are so long. Filling them up with drinking and blocking it all out sounds so tempting. I am going to a recovery place for a few hrs a few days a week so the evenings are the hardest. I haven't yet told them how I'm struggling, I think because part of me wants to get away with having a drink.
I am trying to be sober from alcohol again. I struggle to get past the first month but I've done it this time and am a month and 3 days sober.. Now i'm struggling though. The memories of the pancreatitis or withdrawals have faded and the main issue is I'm lonely, hence the name. I have bipolar and im currently depressed, which means im not enjoying anything and the days are so long. Filling them up with drinking and blocking it all out sounds so tempting. I am going to a recovery place for a few hrs a few days a week so the evenings are the hardest. I haven't yet told them how I'm struggling, I think because part of me wants to get away with having a drink.
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Well done for getting past the first month, I think that's quite significant. I too am bipolar so I understand the difficulties well but for me alcohol just made my bipolar far worse.
Even though your memories of pancreatitis and withdrawals have faded for now, if you start drinking again it probably won't be long until you are experiencing both again.
Try and check in on here regularly, we're a friendly bunch and please try and talk about about things at your recovery place, I think that would be good for you.
Good luck and take care.
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Hello there, welcome.
Well done for getting past the first month, I think that's quite significant. I too am bipolar so I understand the difficulties well but for me alcohol just made my bipolar far worse.
Even though your memories of pancreatitis and withdrawals have faded for now, if you start drinking again it probably won't be long until you are experiencing both again.
Try and check in on here regularly, we're a friendly bunch and please try and talk about about things at your recovery place, I think that would be good for you.
Good luck and take care.
J
Well done for getting past the first month, I think that's quite significant. I too am bipolar so I understand the difficulties well but for me alcohol just made my bipolar far worse.
Even though your memories of pancreatitis and withdrawals have faded for now, if you start drinking again it probably won't be long until you are experiencing both again.
Try and check in on here regularly, we're a friendly bunch and please try and talk about about things at your recovery place, I think that would be good for you.
Good luck and take care.
J
I've decided I will tell them tomorrow, so i just need to get through tonight as tomorrow evening I am off to a new social thing and will spend the day at the recovery place. i'll see how it goes though.
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Unfotunately they have to get it into my system slowly so they said I won't feel much effect until about mid september? I'm finding that hard to deal with.
Welcome and congrats to a month! That is great!
When I found myself feeling "lonely" I had to find a hobby. I had to learn to be good with my own company and know that I am enough. Once I am good with my own company, I may look for another to join my space but until then I am enjoying the ride alone and filling my time with books, painting, some TV and doing a lot more things with my son.
Best of luck to ya,
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When I found myself feeling "lonely" I had to find a hobby. I had to learn to be good with my own company and know that I am enough. Once I am good with my own company, I may look for another to join my space but until then I am enjoying the ride alone and filling my time with books, painting, some TV and doing a lot more things with my son.
Best of luck to ya,
DC
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Congrats on over a month! The hardest time for me was the first 30 days. I am now at almost 4 months and one thing that has got me past any cravings was letting go the romance I played with drinking in my head. I would use those memories of shame spirals, horrid hangovers, sickness and depression remind me of how much worse drinking makes my life. Good luck! Keep on just choosing to not drink moment to moment day by day.
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Welcome and congrats to a month! That is great!
When I found myself feeling "lonely" I had to find a hobby. I had to learn to be good with my own company and know that I am enough. Once I am good with my own company, I may look for another to join my space but until then I am enjoying the ride alone and filling my time with books, painting, some TV and doing a lot more things with my son.
Best of luck to ya,
DC
When I found myself feeling "lonely" I had to find a hobby. I had to learn to be good with my own company and know that I am enough. Once I am good with my own company, I may look for another to join my space but until then I am enjoying the ride alone and filling my time with books, painting, some TV and doing a lot more things with my son.
Best of luck to ya,
DC
I'm sorry you're feeling depressed right now. Been there. It's awful! I don't want to pry, but are you being treated for your bi-polar? If so, with what? How long do the depressive episodes usually last?
You will not be lonely here and glad you've found this forum.
Writing is a great outlet. Come on here and read and post. Someone is always around on this world wide forum.
Pancreatitis is awful. Never had it but know some folks who have and it's miserable. My BIL was hospitalized with it last year about 2 weeks before he was supposed to get married. Second marriage and they already live together....so they had to postpone the wedding.
You will not be lonely here and glad you've found this forum.
Writing is a great outlet. Come on here and read and post. Someone is always around on this world wide forum.
Pancreatitis is awful. Never had it but know some folks who have and it's miserable. My BIL was hospitalized with it last year about 2 weeks before he was supposed to get married. Second marriage and they already live together....so they had to postpone the wedding.
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I'm sorry you're feeling depressed right now. Been there. It's awful! I don't want to pry, but are you being treated for your bi-polar? If so, with what? How long do the depressive episodes usually last?
You will not be lonely here and glad you've found this forum.
Writing is a great outlet. Come on here and read and post. Someone is always around on this world wide forum.
Pancreatitis is awful. Never had it but know some folks who have and it's miserable. My BIL was hospitalized with it last year about 2 weeks before he was supposed to get married. Second marriage and they already live together....so they had to postpone the wedding.
You will not be lonely here and glad you've found this forum.
Writing is a great outlet. Come on here and read and post. Someone is always around on this world wide forum.
Pancreatitis is awful. Never had it but know some folks who have and it's miserable. My BIL was hospitalized with it last year about 2 weeks before he was supposed to get married. Second marriage and they already live together....so they had to postpone the wedding.
pancreatitis is the most painful thing ive ever been through!
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If you have had pancreatitis you are playing with fire, it will come right back with vengeance. Acute pancreatitis is a medical emergency and kills quite a high number of people. If you survive an acute episode it can turn chronic and leave you in constant pain with nasty flareups, unable to digest food properly for rest of your life. Drink in that condition you won't last long.
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If you have had pancreatitis you are playing with fire, it will come right back with vengeance. Acute pancreatitis is a medical emergency and kills quite a high number of people. If you survive an acute episode it can turn chronic and leave you in constant pain with nasty flareups, unable to digest food properly for rest of your life. Drink in that condition you won't last long.
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Sorry they would be my psychiatrist and psychiatric nurse. I also have an alcohol worker so I have quite a lot of support. I just need to let someone know im struggling which i've struggled to do, but i've done it now.
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Congrats on on 30 + days- What a tremendous accomplishment! I started noticing a significant drop in my anxiety/depression levels at around 60 days or so. You're very in recovery so be patient and know that everyday you are healing.
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