bluedog97

After 90 days sober in April, I gave back in to the demon and I drank again. I have been drinking on and off since them with several more attempts to quit on my own (unsuccessful obviously).

I told myself after drinking everyday this week this would be my day 1. So here I am, tail between my legs and all. I'm afraid if I don't announce this I'll give in again.

It becomes like a runaway train once you start back up again.

biminiblue

Yeah. That first drink is the one to avoid.

I don't drink. For any reason whatsoever.

Glad you made it back.

DarklingSong

90 days was great. If you can do it once you can do it again! Day 1 is hard...but as you know it gets easier, physically at least.
Support to you.

SoberTyger

Great choice to come back!
I know how you feel, i am still in early recovery after a slip.
Hope you will get safe through the withdrawals and make a good plan to stay sober...
Are you getting any help to stop and stay stopped?

SoberedupGirl

Me too... but we are here. And we aren't giving up despite how hard it is...

ReadyAtLast

Same here. We can do this though. We've done it before and will do it again.

Do you have support and a plan ?wishing you all the best.

bluedog97

Thanks for the replies. Right now I'm just dealing with a hangover and want to get through the day. I'll be making a new plan over the coming days and weeks.

My financial situation has actually improved and will likely be looking to make some changes to my living situation. A change of scenery will do wonders for my mental health I think.

I just need to make a plan and stick to it. And stay sober. It's so freakin hard.

Hevyn

Bluedog - wonderful to see you. Sorry for your misery, but you're back - and you can make it last this time.

I agree - it's a runaway train when we cave and go back out. My last time was terrifying. I had 3 yrs. & have no idea why I thought I could have 'a nice glass of wine'. I'd proven to myself over & over there was no such thing as ONE. Very bad things happened. I can never risk it again.

You can do it!

tomsteve

good on ya,bluegog for gettin back to recovery and also not waiting to get a new plan set.

a change of scenerey can be good, just remember
wherever you go, there you are.

getting sober and learning how to live life on lifes terms is hard.
staying sober and living life on lifes terms is easy.
well worth the fight.

hpdw

Hi Bluedog97,
I,m glad you came back . I,m in early recovery too , 1 month .
I know how you feel but as mentioned above you got 90 days before so you know you can do this .

Delilah1

Welcome back Bluedog! I had many similar posts, and finally with the help of this thread have been able to hit 20 months sober. The first few days are rough as you know, but it really does start to get easier. You should join us In the 24 hour thread, we have a wonderfully supportive group, and it is a great way to check in and commit to the next 24 hours sober. Also, Dee should have posted the September 2017 thread, pop in there and you'll have the support of others who are committing or recommitting to sobriety this month.

You can do this!!!

Dee74

Welcome back Bluedog

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bluedog97

Thanks again for the replies. I haven't slept a wink but I'm glad I'm not hungover.

August252015

Glad you are back and sharing.

It's a new month- you get another start this time!

What can we do to help?