Polaroid

3 months in rehab. Did it help? Absolutely. Did I help myself? Absolutely not.

Relapsed after I got home on Tuesday. Could I be any dumber?

I'm now detoxing. Going to the local hospital in less than 24 hours. I'm absolutely -not- gonna take the chance of an 8th seizure.

Got my hand casted after under-realizing how low my tolerance is now. Punched a table, but after all, it was the better alternative than punching any human beings. I'm not that guy.

I'm so sorry guys and gals. I'd like you to know that relapses never work. Never.

least

Start over. See if you can add something to your plan to stay sober. You can do this.

Tynesider22

You can't change the past, what's done is done, but you can look to the future.

Good luck.

doggonecarl

Preaching to the choir.

Hope you can make this your last stint through hell.

Polaroid

Thank you all. Weirdly, I've never felt more comfortable going to the hospital. Perhaps because I've figured I hate being alone.

It's not easy typing with a broken right hand. I'll just say; SR, you've been a lot of help.

Dee74

I'm sorry you drank and all that happened but you absolutely can make this the last time you need to feel like this Polaroid.

If you need help with a plan, just yell out

D

january161992

Polaroid

how are you today?

Polaroid

Thanks for asking,

I've been... through the worst. For around 2-3 days, every second felt like a nightmare. Anxieties hitting new peaks. I just felt like I was about to die at every heartbeat.

Just wanted to sleep through it all, which for the most part I tried to do.

Now I feel rather... okay. Maybe a little apathethic and depressed... still a lil of the shakes, anxiety, etc.


ps. the small text font in my original post, I didn't intend to format it that way... but now that I did, I'd say it reflects shame and how soft spoken I really am.

JamesfrmEngland

I've had more come backs than Frank Sinatra just keep trying and you'll get it