Chele71

First time here. Drinking. My home life is a mess. I had to leave for a bit to aleve this sickening chest pressure. Alcohol is destroying me. Me. Unbelievable . Did not drink until 5 years ago. Started with straight tequila. Few know. I am , by all appearances a professional, responsible human. Just venting instead of lurking . Baby steps.

paulski75

I am the same. Now 2 days clean. It was difficult but manageable. Alcohol will not help but destroy us.
I feel your pain. Try to get rid of it. There is always hope and new life.

paulski75

And stay here...keep reading

NewRomanMan

Welcome Chele71.

Delilah1

Welcome to SR, keep reading and posting.

BringingBackB

Welcome to SR Chele. This is an incredibly supportive place

Anna

I'm glad you posted.

Horn95

Been there done that. I feel you. Yesterday I sat in the parking lot of my favorite local bar, just staring at it. I wanted so bad to go in and get just have one tiny little, oh so tasty MacAllan's. But i knew I wasn't going in. Because I knew that if I did this past 8 days would have been lost.

Give up the alcohol my man. It only makes it worse.

bluedog97

You can decide now to quit for good. Glad you decided to post. There is no positive outcome with drinking. Welcome

Chele71

My husband repeatedly tells me he is leaving due to this. He had affairs due to this . I want out too. He, again, for thr 40 kabillionth time told me today he wants a divorce. I no longer care BUT he says he will keep my 3 yr old lil man away from me because of this. It frightens me, obviously.

Chele71

I am stuck. I drank Saturday, by myself, always by myself . He punishes me by ignoring me. No talking . No acknowledgement. Nothing . I can't take it. I'm pathetic but I haven't always been this way.

Scruffanie

Welcome Chele. Keep posting and reading on here, there is so much support.

Berrybean

Glad you're here and posting. Stay. And reach out for all the help available to you. This disease doesn't discriminate. When I went to AA meetings I don't know really what I expected. What I didn't expect were so many people who were bright and successful in so many ways. For example, Teachers, nurses, surgeons, counsellors, a self-made millionaire or two, solicitors, drivers, mothers, grandmothers, jockeys (Well, maybe I did expect them tbh) lecturers, publishers - all sorts.

The good news is, it is possible to get sober and stay sober, and to learn how to make our sobriety comfortable and sustainable.

Stick with us. You can do this.

BB

gregknight

A prayer and hug from me, Chele. It seems as if there is never a good time to do it, but try to stop. It sucks, but more drinking will only make it worse.

Chele71

I, obviously, can't do this . I'm drinking now. Knowing I'll go home to a fight. I make it 48-72 hours . Tops. Uugh.

Chele71

I swear he wants me to fail.

paulski75

Chele, I am so sorry you have to go through this. We all had our reasons. Stay here and write your thoughts. We are all here for you and with you. Do not drink anymore. I know easy to say but that's true and you know it.
How are you now?

Berrybean

Well, you just haven't managed to get your support and sober plan as you need it yet. If often takes a while.

First things first. Stop drinking now and get home safely and get to sleep.

Tomorrow you could start looking at what you can add in to make this sobriety malarkey work for you. Dee's thread on making a plan is a good place to start... http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...y-plans-1.html
No point looking at it drunk, so probably best to wait til tomorrow to explore the links on it. But if you want to get sober and are willing to do the work to make that happen, then you will be able to do so. I don't think anyone rocks up here feeling like they'll ever really be able to crack it, but plenty of people do.

What have you tried in the past?

BB

soberlicious

As it should. Does it frighten you enough to quit drinking?

One of my main reasons for quitting was my children. I did not want them to have a drunk for a mom. They deserve better. All children do.

Chele71

I'm OK. Just heartsick for several reasons. Thank you to each of you