Day 20
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Join Date: Sep 2016
Location: Upstate NY, USA
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Day 20
Day 20 is done. It sounds solid, but I know I'm just 1 beer away from being upside-down in my car that I flipped in a tomato field again...Definitely some cravings yesterday, although not quite the cavern in my innards screaming "fill me with beer" that I had, oh..21 days ago! It's 6am here, I just put the cat out. It's really nice outside, and I thought "how peaceful it would be to drink outside now..." Well, no alcohol sales until noon on Sundays; I'm not sure what would've happened if I could've got some....
I can't feel sorry for myself, because I will drink. It IS hard to be a craving alcoholic, but playing the tape forward (and backwards!) shows that it is harder to be an ACTIVE alcoholic than one in recovery, so that is where I want to be, and I hope posting this helps me.
I can't feel sorry for myself, because I will drink. It IS hard to be a craving alcoholic, but playing the tape forward (and backwards!) shows that it is harder to be an ACTIVE alcoholic than one in recovery, so that is where I want to be, and I hope posting this helps me.
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Join Date: May 2016
Location: West Wales
Posts: 1,630
Congrats on 20 days Fortress. One minute, one hour, one day at a time. Most cravings don't last very long and they will get less and less.
I used to love sitting outside with a drink and a fag. Now I do it with a cup of tea or coffee...
You can do it Fortress!
I used to love sitting outside with a drink and a fag. Now I do it with a cup of tea or coffee...
You can do it Fortress!
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Join Date: Jul 2015
Location: Soberville, USA
Posts: 4,174
Fort,
Now that you are through the detox, the mind wants the drug.
It is all about dopamine. It is science. It will take a while to feel content sober w out any drugs.
Some folks end up on antidepressants to cope w life w out booze.
Many relapse. I was going insane at 80 days clean. That is what brought me to SR.
It gets better, but the addiction grinds.
The obsessing is tiresome.
Eat when you crave. Sweet stuff tricks the brain. Once through the crave, it feels great to have won the mini battle.
Remember, you are an addict. There is nothing cool about being a drunk. Living drunk is living in a fantasy world.
Sobriety is our design. Drinking booze is a learned behavior. Unlearn it.
Hope this helps.
Thanks.
Now that you are through the detox, the mind wants the drug.
It is all about dopamine. It is science. It will take a while to feel content sober w out any drugs.
Some folks end up on antidepressants to cope w life w out booze.
Many relapse. I was going insane at 80 days clean. That is what brought me to SR.
It gets better, but the addiction grinds.
The obsessing is tiresome.
Eat when you crave. Sweet stuff tricks the brain. Once through the crave, it feels great to have won the mini battle.
Remember, you are an addict. There is nothing cool about being a drunk. Living drunk is living in a fantasy world.
Sobriety is our design. Drinking booze is a learned behavior. Unlearn it.
Hope this helps.
Thanks.
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Join Date: Oct 2016
Location: MN
Posts: 93
You are further in days than me so cannot be a wise sage but as you said, it is better to not be an active alcoholic.
Right now I am delighting in the fact that I have not wasted the last 2 weeks on drinking. I wasted years and I want to be done.
Right now I am delighting in the fact that I have not wasted the last 2 weeks on drinking. I wasted years and I want to be done.
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