I Have Been Honest Now
I Have Been Honest Now
Something very bad happened. All is out in the open now. I am on day 4 and going to see a councler tomorrow.
Everyone suspected. My wife knew more than anyone. They all know the full extent now. They all know that even if I go a week or 2 without that the last few years have been hell and I put them through hell.
My wife, parents, and best friends all know. They are all supportive except my dad. If I quit that is not good for his good times.
On day 4. All is good except the neurological symptoms of withdrawl when going to sleep. Pray for me please. I made it 11 days in June and gave it all up. I am not a person that can drink.
No more hiding.
Everyone suspected. My wife knew more than anyone. They all know the full extent now. They all know that even if I go a week or 2 without that the last few years have been hell and I put them through hell.
My wife, parents, and best friends all know. They are all supportive except my dad. If I quit that is not good for his good times.
On day 4. All is good except the neurological symptoms of withdrawl when going to sleep. Pray for me please. I made it 11 days in June and gave it all up. I am not a person that can drink.
No more hiding.
Day 4 - that's something to be proud of, BD. I'm sorry for all the pain you've experienced, but here's where it can end. 'I am not a person that can drink' - simply stated, but so true. You can do it!
Welcome back BD. Don't just hope that your your counseling works, make it work. And if it's not enough, add more. Meetings, more time here, rehab....whatever it takes. SR is always here to help too, any hour of the day.
I cant drink anymore. Its the same rocky road every time.
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My thought are with you and I am in the same boat, but on day 3. I do agree with a previous post that today. I actually feel better because it is out in the open. It gives me relief and relief to the ones around me because at least I have admitted something everyone knew for a long time, but I foolishly thought I was still hiding. I think the hiding created a tremendous amount of stress for me and actually contributed to drinking more. As of today I am so thankful I don't have to hide it anymore.
If I can hold on to sobriety the days of sneaking drinks, acting and lying about whether or not I had been drinking, risking trouble with the law, mornings of remorse and feeling like crap, etc., etc. are OVER and that is a great thing to think about right now even though times are very tough right now.
It will feel so nice to be 100% honest and trusted again. Hopefully this helps and know you're not alone.
I also believe that being sober over the long term can heal most relationships or at least come to an understanding and move on to re-newed relationships or create new ones.
I will end with a quote that my father told me when I was a child that I am using in these difficult times where I have tarnished relationships with my drinking, "trust is something you can't ask for, it is something that is earned over time". I need to earn trust again.
If I can hold on to sobriety the days of sneaking drinks, acting and lying about whether or not I had been drinking, risking trouble with the law, mornings of remorse and feeling like crap, etc., etc. are OVER and that is a great thing to think about right now even though times are very tough right now.
It will feel so nice to be 100% honest and trusted again. Hopefully this helps and know you're not alone.
I also believe that being sober over the long term can heal most relationships or at least come to an understanding and move on to re-newed relationships or create new ones.
I will end with a quote that my father told me when I was a child that I am using in these difficult times where I have tarnished relationships with my drinking, "trust is something you can't ask for, it is something that is earned over time". I need to earn trust again.
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