Looking for support please
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Looking for support please
Im on Day 10.
Been dealing with the usual quit stuff we all do....
That Said, TODAY the AV is screaming at me that Im doing great -
so NOW ITS TIME to have a few tonight to celebrate.
This voice even had the audacity to scream this as I read my own
journal notes I wrote on how shi**Y I felt while drinking nightly.
aarg
chime in please!!!
Been dealing with the usual quit stuff we all do....
That Said, TODAY the AV is screaming at me that Im doing great -
so NOW ITS TIME to have a few tonight to celebrate.
This voice even had the audacity to scream this as I read my own
journal notes I wrote on how shi**Y I felt while drinking nightly.
aarg
chime in please!!!
Here is a quote from you about the last time you drank and your first blackout just a couple of weeks ago. You won't have "just a few"...that boat left the dock a long time ago. Choosing to have just a few, or even one will mean choosing all the other things that come along with the obligatory binge. And whatever you won't remember again in your next blackout...etc.
"Last Sat, went to family event (X mas related).
Had a beer , PANICKED! - because I would have to go back at least six more times to keep buzz going-(what if I cant get enough-quick enough?)
So I bought a pitcher. pounded it. Then another.
Next thing I know Im trashed....evening continues....
Next morning(hung over btw)When the better half asked how I liked her Moms food that night
I COULD NOT REMEMBER EATING - LIKE AT ALL!!!
My first Blackout.
Im done, ENOUGH
Im back with ya all....to stay."
"Last Sat, went to family event (X mas related).
Had a beer , PANICKED! - because I would have to go back at least six more times to keep buzz going-(what if I cant get enough-quick enough?)
So I bought a pitcher. pounded it. Then another.
Next thing I know Im trashed....evening continues....
Next morning(hung over btw)When the better half asked how I liked her Moms food that night
I COULD NOT REMEMBER EATING - LIKE AT ALL!!!
My first Blackout.
Im done, ENOUGH
Im back with ya all....to stay."
Hang in there, livingnow! That's how it gets me, too. I'm on day 10 also. I've found it helpful to look forward to the next milestone. 2 weeks, maybe? We're 4 days away from a full two weeks, if we drink today we'll be 14 days away. That would suck!
paint run write clean house dance your special someone around.. please don't take a drink or a drug to say hey dumby you got this far with.. please ... remember why you are doing this path of light and hope and please look at yourself in the mirror and know this is a better person for the try that got you this far.. ardy...
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This is a challenging time for most people. The initial high of starting your journey has worn off, & your mood is likely to dip.
All I can say is that if you hang in there, you will get your second wind. You will start to feel great again, & remember why you're doing this to begin with. Plan ahead, don't be too hard on yourself and hang in there.
All I can say is that if you hang in there, you will get your second wind. You will start to feel great again, & remember why you're doing this to begin with. Plan ahead, don't be too hard on yourself and hang in there.
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This site (you guys) are so awesome! Im taking advice offered by some of you...
I just got back from a very cold - but refreshing walk - cleared my head.
SERIOUSLY- Im going to (ask the wife) to bake a cake for me.
I DO deserve it. dont I....???
Yes. I do.
Again Thanks- Im not drinking - screw the AV
I just got back from a very cold - but refreshing walk - cleared my head.
SERIOUSLY- Im going to (ask the wife) to bake a cake for me.
I DO deserve it. dont I....???
Yes. I do.
Again Thanks- Im not drinking - screw the AV
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