Powerlessness
Powerlessness
Hiya,
second day sober. Feel a bit like I've just woken up from a nightmare. When I look back over the last four years I feel a choking sensation of pain. My alcoholism is a nightmare and consequences mean nothing but stop me temporarily. Now I recognise my powerlessness over alcohol and want to start living a happy sober life. Before alcoholism destroys anything more and ultimately destroys me. I believe I started to live a happy, sober life yesterday morning when I woke up and new something had to change. Me. I have to get honest with myself. Brutally honest. Looking forward to living my life sober, and building a life worth being sober for.
second day sober. Feel a bit like I've just woken up from a nightmare. When I look back over the last four years I feel a choking sensation of pain. My alcoholism is a nightmare and consequences mean nothing but stop me temporarily. Now I recognise my powerlessness over alcohol and want to start living a happy sober life. Before alcoholism destroys anything more and ultimately destroys me. I believe I started to live a happy, sober life yesterday morning when I woke up and new something had to change. Me. I have to get honest with myself. Brutally honest. Looking forward to living my life sober, and building a life worth being sober for.
Welcome to a new way of living that in time will be better than anything you can imagine. I pray every morning that I will be granted a day of sobriety. That the obsession and compulsion to drink will be lifted from me today.
So far this prayer has worked pretty darn good
So far this prayer has worked pretty darn good
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Hi.
Most sober alcoholics must be 100% honest with themselves about our own drinking as a first step in recovery. In my case that led me to believe and accept the fact that I cannot drink in safety.
After this the work involved comes easier, I did not say easy. I fortunately was able to immerse myself in the program following many “suggestions” even when I didn’t want to.
Life did get far better and I wouldn’t change my best day drinking for ANY of my worst days since I stopped. As is said it works IF we work it.
BE WELL
Most sober alcoholics must be 100% honest with themselves about our own drinking as a first step in recovery. In my case that led me to believe and accept the fact that I cannot drink in safety.
After this the work involved comes easier, I did not say easy. I fortunately was able to immerse myself in the program following many “suggestions” even when I didn’t want to.
Life did get far better and I wouldn’t change my best day drinking for ANY of my worst days since I stopped. As is said it works IF we work it.
BE WELL
Wow! Some good words there. Today has been a good day so far. Feeling positive but my mind keeps replaying old tapes of the destruction of my drinking! But if I dwell on them that destruction will continue. That is one thing that I do know. Thank you for all the words of encouragement
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