Tiffyw12

Hi ALL, Thought I was doing really well, day 19/20 (cant remember) sober. The usual thoughts I had about drinking wine around 5pm ish, went and I had stopped thinking about it. Well, take my husband and I having a big bust up (trivial stuff), and I'm at the shop/store buying a bottle of rose wine. Get home, sit on my bed with every intention of drinking it, because it would make me feel better right? WRONG, of course it wont, it never did. In fact if I drank while I was in any kind of emotional state, I would turn into the devil woman. No words would be limited from my mouth and I would keep on and on and on at my husband until he retaliated with the same words back at me. Oh boy then I had my ammunition, my reason to drink more and get nastier!

Came on to SR read lots, got the wine and poured the whole lot down the toilet. The smell came back up at me and made me gag!

I don't want to go back to day one in the morning, back to detoxing and panic. No amount of wine will make the situation better, it will make me worse and will be coupled with guilt and regret.....NO WORTH IT!

Happy Saturday people. Stay strong!

x

Thepatman

Well done friend!

Tamerua

Way to go! That's the way to sock that AV in the mouth!

HeadLump

Great post, tiffy! Now you can carry on marching towards three weeks!

Tiffyw12

Thanks you guys. It feels good to have beat that demon just now! And even better to share it will you all x Take care all of you

HeadLump

Every single time you beat that demon down you'll get even stronger

melki

Well Done!!!

Waterfalls2014

Good for you Tiffy. Thanks for sharing. Best wishes!

hokey

Way to go tiffy! So glad you dumped that wine ... that is a HUGE score against the AV!!

PurpleKnight

Great job!! Keep pushing through!!

Gonnachange

Well played!

LBrain

I wouldn't exactly say well played. Good job on dumping the poison. Bad job on bringing it home.

Maybe next time don't pick up that bottle - make that decision first. Then you won't have to make decision number 2. Maybe next time you won't be able to overcome the demon. The more we tempt ourselves the more are our chances of giving in.

hankfrank

Great Job! I hope when I face that same test...I will do the same thing and pour it down the toilet...or better yet not even waste the money in the first place by buying that poison. There is strength in numbers! Stay strong all!

Stoogy

Great job Tiffy, down the toilet is the best place for it.

goodkitty

Awesome victory - I will remember that for moments of weakness!

Mirage74

That's great. In the past, once I'm even on the way to the store, I've relapsed, I'm drinking. Some say a relapse has already begun well before you take the drink. To be able to pour it out takes incredible fortitude. My alcoholic mind would, in the moment, consider that wasteful. From reading your experience, I consider it a win. Good job

Deleteda

That was a great thing to do Tiffy, well done you X

Alex41

Well done tiffy you conquered the demon!! Good on ya

Seanfox

Well done, you've showed tremendous determination.

zerothehero

Good choice.

Some folks left a six pack at my house awhile ago. It's been sitting in the fridge and I just couldn't dump it, so yesterday I brought it to some friends - old drinking buddies - and we chatted for awhile. I was a bit disturbed when I realized the two of them had sucked all six and more in the hour we were visiting. He's not looking too good, and she has gained a lot of weight. I don't think I'll be delivering leftover alcohol to them again. Just didn't seem right...

So, pour it out! Or give it to someone you know doesn't have a drinking problem. Yikes.