I've made it 3 days, but temptation is high
I've made it 3 days, but temptation is high
I've officially made it three days and everything seems to be going swimmingly...except I've recently had the urge just to have a sliver of a pill. I'm hoping my willpower is stronger than this sudden urge. I just want to feel that relaxation, my lower back still hurts and I know even just a quarter of a pill would make it all go away. I hate that I'm even having these thoughts.
I've been so good so far, no major withdrawals (at least none that I haven't been able to handle). Sleep has been restless, but there has been sleep, and that's important. I haven't eaten much but I'm also not hungry. Maybe it has something to do with the weather...it's been rainy so I haven't had anything to do other than watch TV/movies and read. Grrrr this is a frustrating feeling.
I've been so good so far, no major withdrawals (at least none that I haven't been able to handle). Sleep has been restless, but there has been sleep, and that's important. I haven't eaten much but I'm also not hungry. Maybe it has something to do with the weather...it's been rainy so I haven't had anything to do other than watch TV/movies and read. Grrrr this is a frustrating feeling.
Remember what you're doing this for - and remember that this is a marathon, not a sprint - it's likely you'll be tempted again. It's really good to get a strategy in place for when trouble hits.
Stick close to SR...I forget - do you have any other support?
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Stick close to SR...I forget - do you have any other support?
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I've officially made it three days and everything seems to be going swimmingly...except I've recently had the urge just to have a sliver of a pill. I'm hoping my willpower is stronger than this sudden urge. I just want to feel that relaxation, my lower back still hurts and I know even just a quarter of a pill would make it all go away. I hate that I'm even having these thoughts.
I've been so good so far, no major withdrawals (at least none that I haven't been able to handle). Sleep has been restless, but there has been sleep, and that's important. I haven't eaten much but I'm also not hungry. Maybe it has something to do with the weather...it's been rainy so I haven't had anything to do other than watch TV/movies and read. Grrrr this is a frustrating feeling.
I've been so good so far, no major withdrawals (at least none that I haven't been able to handle). Sleep has been restless, but there has been sleep, and that's important. I haven't eaten much but I'm also not hungry. Maybe it has something to do with the weather...it's been rainy so I haven't had anything to do other than watch TV/movies and read. Grrrr this is a frustrating feeling.
I know this may seem terrifying, but you may want to tell come family members and let them know you are struggling and want to change. This provides support (in theory) and also keeps us accountable for our choices, so we are just left to rely on our own devices and will power. Something to consider.
So I just did a search of NA meetings in my county and they are such odd hours (none today except a men's meeting at 10PM about a 45 min drive away...and clincher on that one...I'm sans penis). All meetings are so far away or gender/sexuality/"I OD'd and survived" specific. I find that so strange. Is this how it is everywhere?
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I suggest you call NA. Tell them where you are and ask what to do.
I never had a problem getting a drink/drug when I wanted/needed one and it's pretty well the same today if I want/need a meeting.
All the best.
Bob R
I never had a problem getting a drink/drug when I wanted/needed one and it's pretty well the same today if I want/need a meeting.
All the best.
Bob R
ending up wanting more
if we are honest with ourselves Haylee
we know that a sliver of a pill will probably only be the
beginning of a return back to exactly where we were
for many of us we exceed even that point
ending up wanting more and more and more
we know that a sliver of a pill will probably only be the
beginning of a return back to exactly where we were
for many of us we exceed even that point
ending up wanting more and more and more
There are non 12 step alternatives too Haylee
here's some links to some of the main recovery players - if you're interested check out things like SMART and Women For Sobriety:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html
I recommend you visit the Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach.
here's some links to some of the main recovery players - if you're interested check out things like SMART and Women For Sobriety:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...formation.html
I recommend you visit the Secular Connections forum if you think you may benefit from a non 12 step approach.
So I just did a search of NA meetings in my county and they are such odd hours (none today except a men's meeting at 10PM about a 45 min drive away...and clincher on that one...I'm sans penis). All meetings are so far away or gender/sexuality/"I OD'd and survived" specific. I find that so strange. Is this how it is everywhere?
Here I looked up a few for you:
NA Chatroom
Online NA meetings, NA meetings - NA Chat
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