Missy7

My family is really going through it--which manifests itself in stressing each other out. We are arguing over my sister's epitaph and there is a lot of pressure and guilt as we plan her funeral.

So some wine would fix it quick--while destroying what little success I have.

So I am pushing through with a strong case of generalized anxiety and a lot of pressure. But SR is here--so I am here--and I guess I'll just hang tough. Right?

Dee74

I'm sorry you need to go through this again Missy.
I can only imagine how difficult it must be

Wine wouldn't really fix anything tho - not really...right?

D

awuh1

It strikes me that prayers are in order. Sending some now.

karilynn27

So sorry missy.... Sending prayers
Keep posting, stay close one breath at a time
K

DisplacedGRITS

Wishing you and your family peace during this trying time. Alcohol only delays problems and complicates situations.

instant

Missy my thoughts are with you. When all else fails time may carry you through

Hollyanne

So sorry Missy.
No drink, no drink, no drink!
And watch out for AFTER this sad/stressful time.
That's when I would "reward" myself.
:ghug3

Payton

I am so sorry Missy.

A drink will only make it worse. Thinking of you.

frances2011

Right. Thinking of you. Thinking of you moving through today, each minute, each hour, breathing, drinking water, going outside for a break.....

Strength to you. Booze will not help or fix what's broken here.

sugarbear1

Stay strong at this difficult time. Clear thinking is in order. Drinking will just make things worse. Be true to yourself.

My condolences on your loss.

Hugs,

artsoul

I'm so sorry.... wish we could all be there to give you a hug.:ghug3 It's normal to have all kinds of feelings right now. I'm so proud of you for hanging in there.:ghug3

Missy7

I'm hanging in. End of term, end of year, lots of ends.

Programmatic

I'm still in early sobriety approaching a year this weekend.

In even earlier sobriety we suffered a miscarriage and the grief certainly compelled me to desire the drink.

What I took from that experience was that I had been covering up my pain and misfortunes with alcohol for years and thereby depriving myself of living life to its' fullest.

Life includes pain, sadness and heartache. Experiencing these things makes us human. Depriving ourselves of these things robs us of our humanity and and our ability to connect with others and ourselves.

This helped me to see that this experience was literally a once in a lifetime experience. I may never suffer another miscarriage. And If I do I will be at a different place and it will be the 2nd time not the 1st time. This experience provided the opportunity to experience feelings otherwise impossible. through it I experienced much healing and reconnection with self and others.

Your sister will never pass from this life again, this is a once in a lifetime experience for you; experience it.