I am hurting
I am hurting
I managed to go 5 days. Over a weekend. A record for me. But with my drinking failures this last week and the drugs last night I am hurting inside. I tell myself to go easy on me. Try not to beat myself up so I have enough strength to stay sober. Not to waste all my energy on yesterday's.
The power of decision is my own. What in my head tells me it's ok to drink when I KNOW otherwise.
I have had no sleep all night. Feel like hell. My sole cannot take much more. I need to value myself.
Yadda yadda yadda................. * sigh *
The power of decision is my own. What in my head tells me it's ok to drink when I KNOW otherwise.
I have had no sleep all night. Feel like hell. My sole cannot take much more. I need to value myself.
Yadda yadda yadda................. * sigh *
I have no plans on giving up. Ever! My support system is weak. No family. My brother knew I went to rehab before and at holidays still pushes the drinks on me.
I will reach out to those I can. Just hurting today and it felt good to tell someone.
BTW.... I can spell soul! :-)
I will reach out to those I can. Just hurting today and it felt good to tell someone.
BTW.... I can spell soul! :-)
hi Weasel, i (and some of us here) know exactly how you feel, the depression should go away once you sober up and stop using your head as a punching bag. (that's what i used to tell myself too). have a good meal
What in my head tells me it's ok to drink when I KNOW otherwise.
By the time I got here, the sane part of me was a tiny fraction of the space in my head. I takes time to build that part up and exercise it, like a muscle. It felt like a full time job for a while, but it really did get easier.
Learning not to act on every urge or feeling is hard at first, but you did it for 5 days and you can do it again!
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