Hi from another newbie
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Hi from another newbie
I probably have the same story as many of you. Me, I only wanted to cut down, so thought maybe weekend drink would be okay. Didn't drink all last week then did a whopper from Friday afternoon till Sunday afternoon. Was so disgusted with myself, haven't again had a drink since Sunday early evening.
Now I am beginning to think (or do I actually already know this & who am I trying to fool) that I shouldn't be drinking "just" on weekends either?
I thought I was coming down with the flu when I stopped. I don't think I have been a day without a drink in perhaps 10-12 years - self medicating very heavily for the last 7, before that 35 years perhaps, I "only" drank regularly... I still have that awful headachy feeling, insomnia bad, sleeping max 5 hours at a stretch, thankful the entire body itchy seems to be gone, although the aches and pains still bothersome, take an aspirin every night when I go to bed.
I quite smoking mid January this year (pack & 1/2 - 2 packs a day for the last 20 years) and that is going just fine, so I guess I can do just about anything, right!
When I visit my brother in the US, I used to go to his AA meetings with him, just to keep him "company". My brothers (2 sober thanks to AA and 1 still in denial) have no idea of my problem
. They always say that I am so lucky that the women in the family didn't get the "curse". Makes it hard, always being so perfect, I am very well behaved when around them. I will next week be visiting again, this time for 2 months, staying with one of my sober brothers. I think I need to come clean with him?
Just wish me luck. Will continue reading all the posts which have given me inspiration these past days to NOT drink. I need to do this or I know it will kill me.
Thanks to all of you for being there and your support.
P.s. will try to get a picture, update profile... not real good at these things!
Now I am beginning to think (or do I actually already know this & who am I trying to fool) that I shouldn't be drinking "just" on weekends either?
I thought I was coming down with the flu when I stopped. I don't think I have been a day without a drink in perhaps 10-12 years - self medicating very heavily for the last 7, before that 35 years perhaps, I "only" drank regularly... I still have that awful headachy feeling, insomnia bad, sleeping max 5 hours at a stretch, thankful the entire body itchy seems to be gone, although the aches and pains still bothersome, take an aspirin every night when I go to bed.
I quite smoking mid January this year (pack & 1/2 - 2 packs a day for the last 20 years) and that is going just fine, so I guess I can do just about anything, right!
When I visit my brother in the US, I used to go to his AA meetings with him, just to keep him "company". My brothers (2 sober thanks to AA and 1 still in denial) have no idea of my problem
. They always say that I am so lucky that the women in the family didn't get the "curse". Makes it hard, always being so perfect, I am very well behaved when around them. I will next week be visiting again, this time for 2 months, staying with one of my sober brothers. I think I need to come clean with him?Just wish me luck. Will continue reading all the posts which have given me inspiration these past days to NOT drink. I need to do this or I know it will kill me.
Thanks to all of you for being there and your support.
P.s. will try to get a picture, update profile... not real good at these things!
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welcome to the family life
perhaps,
if you want to keep that life, live it, and learn how to enjoy it without a drink...
dont pick up that first drink.
as it's the first drink, that gets us drunk...
good wishes life
zip
perhaps,
if you want to keep that life, live it, and learn how to enjoy it without a drink...
dont pick up that first drink.
as it's the first drink, that gets us drunk...
good wishes life
zip
I'm glad you decided to stop drinking. Living sober is SO much better.Member
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Welcome LifeIs, glad like me you have found this place. Its been a god send for me. Its really good to be able to talk to people that understand what we are going through! I only joined yesterday but have read so many posts and have been given some really good advice. You have made a big decision and I guess like me need as much support as you can get!!!
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Welcome to our recovery community.....
Glad to know you are seeking a healthier sober future
I too had been a long time drinker before AA.
It's been an awesome adventure for me
Glad to know you are seeking a healthier sober future
I too had been a long time drinker before AA.
It's been an awesome adventure for me
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Welcome, Life!
Yep, I did the same thing - only on weekends - till weekends turned into week days that turned into week nights - you got it - it only gets progressively worse. And struggling to not pick up in between at first in order to try and fool ourselves into thinking 'we don't have a problem' cuz we only drink on weekends...uhmmm, not so much. For me, it was a train wreck waiting to happen.
Being the so-called 'perfect one' in the family only made things worse - my exterior success and 'got-it-all-together' appearance was a total sham. There's no dishonesty worse than the dishonesty with yourself, I think.
For me, I continued the facade until I spiraled out of control. I live in another state so my family didn't see what I was doing. I never took the chance to ask my family for help - my alcoholism decided for me because it got so bad that the truth was exposed - I'm grateful that it wasn't exposed through a fatality - which was on the way to happening.
I wish you well in getting honest with yourself. It's not about luck.
Take care ~
Yep, I did the same thing - only on weekends - till weekends turned into week days that turned into week nights - you got it - it only gets progressively worse. And struggling to not pick up in between at first in order to try and fool ourselves into thinking 'we don't have a problem' cuz we only drink on weekends...uhmmm, not so much. For me, it was a train wreck waiting to happen.
Being the so-called 'perfect one' in the family only made things worse - my exterior success and 'got-it-all-together' appearance was a total sham. There's no dishonesty worse than the dishonesty with yourself, I think.
For me, I continued the facade until I spiraled out of control. I live in another state so my family didn't see what I was doing. I never took the chance to ask my family for help - my alcoholism decided for me because it got so bad that the truth was exposed - I'm grateful that it wasn't exposed through a fatality - which was on the way to happening.
I wish you well in getting honest with yourself. It's not about luck.
Take care ~
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Welcome LifeIs -
Using your name, Life Is a lot more than drinking alcohol.
Given your family history, I think it is great that you are taking this very seriously. As has been said, this is progressive.
Life Is about honesty - with yourself and others. Try to stop drinking and see what happens.
You have made a great first step. Keep posting and learning. Glad you are here.
Using your name, Life Is a lot more than drinking alcohol.
Given your family history, I think it is great that you are taking this very seriously. As has been said, this is progressive.
Life Is about honesty - with yourself and others. Try to stop drinking and see what happens.
You have made a great first step. Keep posting and learning. Glad you are here.
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Welcome LifeIs....
I found this place just yesterday, when i am feeling weak i just start reading. These folks are a life saver. Just keep reading and keep posting, we will be there for you. :ghug3
I found this place just yesterday, when i am feeling weak i just start reading. These folks are a life saver. Just keep reading and keep posting, we will be there for you. :ghug3
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Anna,
I think they will be shocked... we will see. I know that I need to come out with it, but it is hard after pretending all these years. I can't bear that I will no longer be the tough, centered one that everyone has always looked up to and admired.
I am looking forward to attending AA meetings while there, I don't have that opportunity here. I will be strong!
thanks for all the words of encouragement.
I think they will be shocked... we will see. I know that I need to come out with it, but it is hard after pretending all these years. I can't bear that I will no longer be the tough, centered one that everyone has always looked up to and admired.
I am looking forward to attending AA meetings while there, I don't have that opportunity here. I will be strong!
thanks for all the words of encouragement.
Last edited by LifeIs; 04-01-2010 at 10:46 AM. Reason: This post was meant to be in response to Anna's message.
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Welcome to the family, LifeIs. SR made all the difference to me - I wasn't alone any more, and I gained the strength to quit.
I think it's a great idea to confide in your brother. Once I came clean about my alcohol dependency, I felt a huge burden lifted from me. I hope it'll be the same for you. I'm glad you are reaching out for a new and better life.
I think it's a great idea to confide in your brother. Once I came clean about my alcohol dependency, I felt a huge burden lifted from me. I hope it'll be the same for you. I'm glad you are reaching out for a new and better life.
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Welcome LifeIs
As you've already seen, you'll find a lot of support here.
I hope your family and loved ones react positively, but remember you'll always find help support experience and understanding here
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As you've already seen, you'll find a lot of support here.
I hope your family and loved ones react positively, but remember you'll always find help support experience and understanding here
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