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10-14-2009, 10:59 AM

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Robzoloft

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but its still a good thing and a good day to be sober. I need to let go of the self-centered negativity of thoughts like "You've been here before...so what?" and just accept the help and grace of both God and others in recovery. I know for sure my wife and 4 kids are happier and safer...I know my community and employer are too. All the down playing and comparing out and low self-esteem and all that anxiety stuff is just an elaborate relapse plan..a depressing road back to the pain and s***...for everyone in my life, not just me. So today I am trying to sit quietly and gratefully....humble in the knowledge that many people- people who've gone as far down as I have...don't get YET another 30 days.....Thanks...Rob

10-14-2009, 11:06 AM

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Aysha

Looking For Myself...Sober

Join Date: Mar 2007

Location: Where the heart is

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You sound so much better than when I last read your posts. You sound like your doing really well. Keep it up.

10-14-2009, 11:21 AM

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sailorjohn

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Congratulations!!!

10-14-2009, 11:29 AM

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Astro

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Join Date: Nov 2006

Location: Scottsdale, AZ, one big happy dysfunctional family!

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30 days and what seems like 1,000 looooooong nights. Congrats Rob, I'm glad you continue to share your ES&H with our members.

10-14-2009, 12:04 PM

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NewBeginning010

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Great work Rob, we are all here with you one day at a time.

All of the best in your recovery

Take Care,

NB

10-14-2009, 12:12 PM

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ElegantlyWasted

Blu**ed Lines...A ClockWork SR

Join Date: Apr 2006

Location: AZ

Posts: 2,529

Congrats!! Humbly on day 78 this time myself... Some times the negativity really sucks, what really helps me is reading posts like yours and recalibrating my own thoughts and perceptions. It's getting better and will continue to. What I think right now affects my future and accordingly my opportunities.