having sex for cocaine
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Join Date: Sep 2009
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having sex for cocaine
i ran out. my dealer said for casual sex on thursday (evern though i have a boyfriend) he will give me some..
I feel terrible but have no idea what to do, i cant say no because then i lose contacts and argh
im scared
I feel terrible but have no idea what to do, i cant say no because then i lose contacts and argh
im scared 
bona fido dog-lover
Join Date: Mar 2008
Location: SF Bay area, CA
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'Casual' sex can also bring with it 'casual' diseases and 'casual' pregnancy. It's not worth the risk to you. Please tell him NO and get yourself clean. Your life is not worth the risk he'd be putting you under.
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Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: Wales, UK
Posts: 634
This is not good. As Least says what about diseases and pregnancy? Not to mention self respect. I realise the hook drugs have but this is NOT the way. You're worth more than this. This dealer is already taking your money and health, don't give him your body as well.
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Join Date: Feb 2009
Location: CA desert
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Hi MK,
I'm with the others here, this sounds like a real losing proposition and sets a precedent you may regret forever. Let's say you did it one time, what's to stop you next time? And what's the deal, say $40.00 worth of drugs, $50, a $100, what's your self-worth worth? You're worth soooooo much more than any deal that casual sex could offer, besides, why let him use you for his selfish purposes? Just walk away and hopefully let your mind clear enough to see that this is a totally demeaning and harmful proposition.
I'm with the others here, this sounds like a real losing proposition and sets a precedent you may regret forever. Let's say you did it one time, what's to stop you next time? And what's the deal, say $40.00 worth of drugs, $50, a $100, what's your self-worth worth? You're worth soooooo much more than any deal that casual sex could offer, besides, why let him use you for his selfish purposes? Just walk away and hopefully let your mind clear enough to see that this is a totally demeaning and harmful proposition.
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Join Date: Aug 2009
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No, No and triple Nooo!...It's bad enough having to deal with the self loathing and shame the next morning (or whenever) after over indulging on alcohol or using your DOC, let alone adding prostitution into the equation...that slope will get a whole lot more slippery.....think about it...where will it all end?
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Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: Santa fe, New Mexico
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Why are you here? If you need support to fight addiction, I'd love to chime in. if your dilemma is losing your blow contact if you don't have sex with him, sober recovery is not the place to be. Please clarify!
Disposable Hero
Join Date: Sep 2006
Location: Being, ME
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This situation could be evidence that you have a problem with drugs.
There is a better way of life for those who are sick & tired of suffering.
Why not call the local N.A. Hotline number & ask for help to stop using?
There is a better way of life for those who are sick & tired of suffering.
Why not call the local N.A. Hotline number & ask for help to stop using?
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Join Date: Mar 2007
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WARNING>>THIS POST IS GRAPHIC!
You dont know what to do?
All I can do is share my own experience. And you tell me if you think it is worth it.
My fisrt time prostituting myself And yes thats what it is. You will be a coke w****. No 2 ways about it.
I was forced to do it. Not only because I owed these guys..But my addiciton was driving to sacrifice my dignity and morals, My life and health. Yes there were 2 of them.
But once I crossed that line, it was a wrap.
I became a street walking crack hooker. Dont get it twisted and think it cant happen to you. Once you cross that line it will scar you for life.
I cant tell you how many times my addiction drove me to do the most disgusting and degrading things for sometimes nothing. Because I got beat, I didnt care how big or small it was as long as it was something. Not using protection because I didnt care. Gotten kidnapped, almost raped, almost strangled to death. Beat up and the list goes on and on.
It is never "casual" when you are trading your self worth for drugs.
That would only be the beginning.
I seriously hope you tell this guy to F off.
Screw your connections. Is that the ploy? Have sex with him or lose your connect all together.
That is just the beginning. After awhile it will be more and more for less and less.
I cant believe you even have to think about something like that. But then again I can.
I wish I never let myself go that low. I have alot of issues to work out because of it.
That is a whole nother can of worms you really dont want to open.
I am so lucky I dont have HIV or anything else for that matter. The most embarrassing thing to be arrested for is prostitution. It was for me. It is just a whole diifferent level when you go that far.
Please dont do it and stay away from that dude. Cause the propostions will only get worse and more manipulative.
You dont know what to do?
All I can do is share my own experience. And you tell me if you think it is worth it.
My fisrt time prostituting myself And yes thats what it is. You will be a coke w****. No 2 ways about it.
I was forced to do it. Not only because I owed these guys..But my addiciton was driving to sacrifice my dignity and morals, My life and health. Yes there were 2 of them.
But once I crossed that line, it was a wrap.
I became a street walking crack hooker. Dont get it twisted and think it cant happen to you. Once you cross that line it will scar you for life.
I cant tell you how many times my addiction drove me to do the most disgusting and degrading things for sometimes nothing. Because I got beat, I didnt care how big or small it was as long as it was something. Not using protection because I didnt care. Gotten kidnapped, almost raped, almost strangled to death. Beat up and the list goes on and on.
It is never "casual" when you are trading your self worth for drugs.
That would only be the beginning.
I seriously hope you tell this guy to F off.
Screw your connections. Is that the ploy? Have sex with him or lose your connect all together.
That is just the beginning. After awhile it will be more and more for less and less.
I cant believe you even have to think about something like that. But then again I can.
I wish I never let myself go that low. I have alot of issues to work out because of it.
That is a whole nother can of worms you really dont want to open.
I am so lucky I dont have HIV or anything else for that matter. The most embarrassing thing to be arrested for is prostitution. It was for me. It is just a whole diifferent level when you go that far.
Please dont do it and stay away from that dude. Cause the propostions will only get worse and more manipulative.
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Join Date: Mar 2009
Location: Atlanta, GA
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Every story I have heard that begins with "I had sex with my dealer for drugs..." did not end on high note, excuse the pun. There are no Happily Ever Afters when you sleep with a drud dealer for coke. Get help.
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Join Date: Mar 2007
Location: Where the heart is
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Oh and I totally agree with rochadad. I left out of chat last week because you were in there talking about you just did a line. I am a cocaine addict in recovery.
I dont need to see or hear about things like that on a recovery board.
So I am also wondering the same thing.
I dont need to see or hear about things like that on a recovery board.
So I am also wondering the same thing.
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Join Date: Aug 2009
Location: midsouth
Posts: 2,331
I agree with (unless I missed something) everything said above, especially those posts relating to your self-worth and the slippery slope of prostitution.
Do you really want to get clean? If so, losing your contacts might be a good place to start... it will cut out a lot of excuses to get high again.
Do you really want to get clean? If so, losing your contacts might be a good place to start... it will cut out a lot of excuses to get high again.
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Join Date: Jun 2009
Location: Tucson, AZ
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We all have a moral and value system....
Think about this...
Do U want 2 give this up, for drugs and a not lasting high...yea, U can do this and U will not feel for a bit, then U wake up and then U have to deal with this...
Not trying to highjack your thread, but I never and never will I do this.
Rexamine your moral and value system. Do not do this, U will reget this, this I promise...
Stay strong...please!
Think about this...
Do U want 2 give this up, for drugs and a not lasting high...yea, U can do this and U will not feel for a bit, then U wake up and then U have to deal with this...
Not trying to highjack your thread, but I never and never will I do this.
Rexamine your moral and value system. Do not do this, U will reget this, this I promise...
Stay strong...please!
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Join Date: Apr 2006
Location: AZ
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Tried selling Coke in college. Wasn't good at it. "Just" used with GF at the time to party (heavily for about a year). Quit cold turkey; and had vivid coke fantasy dreams for about two months. My belief is that we really don't know who we are and accordingly what we believe in while we are using heavily (any substance). Please dry out and figure out what you really want. By posting here you seem to have a problem with making that decision. Don't do it and you will be much happier with yourself in the long run. Humbly on day 40.
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