ok that's enough, rehab for me!
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ok that's enough, rehab for me!
Well things aren't going great, my drinking has escalated to blackouts which i have never had before, periods of a few hours where i can't remember what i did, keep finding things in weird places, weird emails, terrible behaviour including last night explaining to a rough group of guys in a very rough bar why i consider all catalans to be peasants...seems i am seriously putting myself in harms way on purpose!
My friend has tried to take me to AA a couple of times and i refuse to go back, god knows why as i am sure it would help me,so the only thing left is rehab. Have contacted tonight several places in the south of spain, have someone to look after my cat, will put my stuff in storage and im off, looking to start in the first week of May. My initial plan to take time off and get myslf sorted is a ridiculous proposal as i don't have a clue of what to change, how to think or where to start!
I should have gone to rehab 3 years ago, i remember almost going but this time i will...it's amazing after the 5 months sober how i have gone back to drinking wth such a vengeance and how much worse it is now.
Anyways just thought i would update you all and will no doubt post again before going, let's hope and pray that some of the time there gets through my thick head. I never really thought drinking would kill me but am certain now that at the very least it will make me seriously ill in the next few years unless i deal with it...pretty amazing stuff this disease!
Hope all are well:-)
My friend has tried to take me to AA a couple of times and i refuse to go back, god knows why as i am sure it would help me,so the only thing left is rehab. Have contacted tonight several places in the south of spain, have someone to look after my cat, will put my stuff in storage and im off, looking to start in the first week of May. My initial plan to take time off and get myslf sorted is a ridiculous proposal as i don't have a clue of what to change, how to think or where to start!
I should have gone to rehab 3 years ago, i remember almost going but this time i will...it's amazing after the 5 months sober how i have gone back to drinking wth such a vengeance and how much worse it is now.
Anyways just thought i would update you all and will no doubt post again before going, let's hope and pray that some of the time there gets through my thick head. I never really thought drinking would kill me but am certain now that at the very least it will make me seriously ill in the next few years unless i deal with it...pretty amazing stuff this disease!
Hope all are well:-)
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I wish you lots of luck in what ever you chose to do. I drink the same way as you (long time off then come back drinking the same amount as I used to...) so I will love to see an update when you get back and let us know how you do. I haven't ruled out Rehab yet either it just most likely means losing my job... GOOD LUCK and please let us know how you are doing. we are all routing for you!
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I'm sorry to hear things got so bad for you, Cliff, and that it had to come to this.
God Bless & I'll keep you in my Prayers,
Judy
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Originally Posted by yeahgr8 
...it's amazing after the 5 months sober how i have gone back to drinking wth such a vengeance and how much worse it is now.
Good luck with the rehab.
My prayers are with you.
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