ok that's enough, rehab for me!
 

Well things aren't going great, my drinking has escalated to blackouts which i have never had before, periods of a few hours where i can't remember what i did, keep finding things in weird places, weird emails, terrible behaviour including last night explaining to a rough group of guys in a very rough bar why i consider all catalans to be peasants...seems i am seriously putting myself in harms way on purpose!

My friend has tried to take me to AA a couple of times and i refuse to go back, god knows why as i am sure it would help me,so the only thing left is rehab. Have contacted tonight several places in the south of spain, have someone to look after my cat, will put my stuff in storage and im off, looking to start in the first week of May. My initial plan to take time off and get myslf sorted is a ridiculous proposal as i don't have a clue of what to change, how to think or where to start!

I should have gone to rehab 3 years ago, i remember almost going but this time i will...it's amazing after the 5 months sober how i have gone back to drinking wth such a vengeance and how much worse it is now.

Anyways just thought i would update you all and will no doubt post again before going, let's hope and pray that some of the time there gets through my thick head. I never really thought drinking would kill me but am certain now that at the very least it will make me seriously ill in the next few years unless i deal with it...pretty amazing stuff this disease!

Hope all are well:-)

I wish you lots of luck in what ever you chose to do. I drink the same way as you (long time off then come back drinking the same amount as I used to...) so I will love to see an update when you get back and let us know how you do. I haven't ruled out Rehab yet either it just most likely means losing my job... GOOD LUCK and please let us know how you are doing. we are all routing for you!

Good luck.

Rehab started me on the road to recovery. AA has been the answer for me ever since I got out.

Wishing you nothing but the best! :ghug

Best of luck to you. Im glad you are taking a proactive approach to getting better.

Hey Cliff
Hope rehab's the ticket mate :)

D

Good luck, I hope this is finally what you need :)

Rehab was a great jumping off point for me. I tried several times by myself and I couldn't do it on my own.

Best of luck to you!!

I'm glad you've come to this decision for yourself, Cliff. It takes what it takes, and the rest of your life is at stake.

Please check in when you can.

Be safe.

Good thoughts are with you. :07:

Donna

Yes, this disease is relentless.

I am SO glad that you are continuing to seek help. Rehab sounds like a good idea.

Please keep in touch when you can.

Me too, best of luck to u!

Good luck friend... Stay in touch until May, give us a shout when you are out!

:hug:

I went away for 10 months and it was THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE FOR MYSELF!!! I wish you the best. So happy for you. :ghug

Excellent plan...:hug: