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I keep trying and trying and trying and trying!!!!!!!! And i cant stay sober, no matter how much i want to...my problem is pills, but im substituting, alcohol...i dont want to drink, i want to be completely clean...but i cant deal with problems so i justify in my head that its alright to drink cuz im not doing pills, i know you guys understand.....help....i need something....im drunk right now, cuz i suck...and thats the first thing i want to do when something bad happens to me....I was doing so well....Help
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I see you are no longer online - I hope you come back to this thread when you sober up - please come back and share some more then. I'd be happy to share what worked for me. I am a recovering alcoholic and pill addict.
You aren't alone. You can recover.
You aren't alone. You can recover.
I have been sober for 88 days now. I thought I wanted to stop drinking many times before but always ended up relapsing and cursing myself. Now I'm staying sober far more easily and for longer cause this time I "really" want to stay sober more than I want to drink. Before, all those times, I still wanted to drink, whether normally or alcoholic-aly, and I can only conclude, after the fact, that I just didn't want to quit badly enough.
My last relapse the withdrawals were HORRIBLE. I swore, as before, I'd never do it again. But this last time I really meant it. Can't explain it any other way. But it's a strong feeling deep in my gut. I just finally had enough.
I hope you can finally have enough of the negatives to quit for good! You CAN do this. If I can, anyone can.
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My last relapse the withdrawals were HORRIBLE. I swore, as before, I'd never do it again. But this last time I really meant it. Can't explain it any other way. But it's a strong feeling deep in my gut. I just finally had enough.
I hope you can finally have enough of the negatives to quit for good! You CAN do this. If I can, anyone can.
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No, YOU can't deal with the problems in your head. YOU can't keep yourself sober. Will power is not the answer. You have to get to the point where you are willing to let someone else take control. You have to let go of the wheel and let your higher power guide you and then you have to do everything you have to do to follow and hold onto him. You won't be able to fix yourself. Find a meeting.
I can relate to this.
I quit drinking 5 days ago. But I have smoked pot a few times since (no pills since tho, except for vitamins and ginko) and I remain addicted to the nicotine patch. The way I see it, the nicotine addiction will have to be broken but just not now, it might make the whole quitting drinking thing harder than it is. Anyone who ever was addicted to nicotine knows how bad the first day or two is. And as for the pot, well, I never really thought that was too bad a problem, so I allow it in place of drinking right now. My goal is to kick it all, but the priority is the one really killing me (booze) and then deal with the others when this monster is under control.
I quit drinking 5 days ago. But I have smoked pot a few times since (no pills since tho, except for vitamins and ginko) and I remain addicted to the nicotine patch. The way I see it, the nicotine addiction will have to be broken but just not now, it might make the whole quitting drinking thing harder than it is. Anyone who ever was addicted to nicotine knows how bad the first day or two is. And as for the pot, well, I never really thought that was too bad a problem, so I allow it in place of drinking right now. My goal is to kick it all, but the priority is the one really killing me (booze) and then deal with the others when this monster is under control.
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Thanks guys...Im really feeling down today...dont know what to do with myself, I just wanted to let everyone know im alive and sober TODAY....i'll write more when im not feeling so lost....
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Join Date: Oct 2007
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No, YOU can't deal with the problems in your head. YOU can't keep yourself sober. Will power is not the answer. You have to get to the point where you are willing to let someone else take control. You have to let go of the wheel and let your higher power guide you and then you have to do everything you have to do to follow and hold onto him. You won't be able to fix yourself. Find a meeting.
I know you likely don't mean that but it really could be easy to misinterpret it that way.
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