I keep trying and trying and trying and trying!!!!!!!! And i cant stay sober, no matter how much i want to...my problem is pills, but im substituting, alcohol...i dont want to drink, i want to be completely clean...but i cant deal with problems so i justify in my head that its alright to drink cuz im not doing pills, i know you guys understand.....help....i need something....im drunk right now, cuz i suck...and thats the first thing i want to do when something bad happens to me....I was doing so well....Help
