Please welcome SebastianHi, my name is Sebastian.
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Please welcome SebastianHi, my name is Sebastian.
Hi Sebastian,
I moved your post here as I know you were having difficulty starting one of your own.
Hi, my name is Sebastian.
First of all, I am sorry I burge like this into someones elses thread. I am new here as well, and tried placing my own thread but couldnŽt get it aproved.
I am 29, about to turn 30 and I am an alcoholic and a addict to cocaine. I have been drinking on a regular basis since I am 13, and doing coke since i am 17. At this time I have two days being sober. My body is al shaky, I tell people i am hiperactive. Thank God I actually am somewhat, but know this spasms are not normal. I have a harder time breathing sometimes, and I am just concerned in general with my health, I know i look young and very healthy, but i know it might no be exactly what I am thinking. MEntally, I am very paranoid and suffer from depressions constantly, I am just not good at taking blows, like my brothers death or ending a 6 year relationship. I can manage those things right.
My consumption however limits itself to the weekends and party nights although, in recent months, once in a while, i would just do blow watching movies for a whole night. I have come to enjoy that. Going next morning to work with my eyes red, tiredm and sleepless to finish the left overs of my coke while I work. I just had a 3 day on going party by myself that ended saturday, i have many memory lapsus there that I just have no idea what happened. fortunately no one is hurt, my car is complete(stupid me, i was driving!!!). I just have been telling my self that I would stop 3 months ago, and I cannot stop. I am kidding myself and killing myself. I have many business projects coming up, and my daughter and all my future that I see with good eyes, I dont want to screw it up, I am scared I might just not be able to make it through.
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I moved your post here as I know you were having difficulty starting one of your own.
Hi, my name is Sebastian.
First of all, I am sorry I burge like this into someones elses thread. I am new here as well, and tried placing my own thread but couldnŽt get it aproved.
I am 29, about to turn 30 and I am an alcoholic and a addict to cocaine. I have been drinking on a regular basis since I am 13, and doing coke since i am 17. At this time I have two days being sober. My body is al shaky, I tell people i am hiperactive. Thank God I actually am somewhat, but know this spasms are not normal. I have a harder time breathing sometimes, and I am just concerned in general with my health, I know i look young and very healthy, but i know it might no be exactly what I am thinking. MEntally, I am very paranoid and suffer from depressions constantly, I am just not good at taking blows, like my brothers death or ending a 6 year relationship. I can manage those things right.
My consumption however limits itself to the weekends and party nights although, in recent months, once in a while, i would just do blow watching movies for a whole night. I have come to enjoy that. Going next morning to work with my eyes red, tiredm and sleepless to finish the left overs of my coke while I work. I just had a 3 day on going party by myself that ended saturday, i have many memory lapsus there that I just have no idea what happened. fortunately no one is hurt, my car is complete(stupid me, i was driving!!!). I just have been telling my self that I would stop 3 months ago, and I cannot stop. I am kidding myself and killing myself. I have many business projects coming up, and my daughter and all my future that I see with good eyes, I dont want to screw it up, I am scared I might just not be able to make it through.
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glad you found this site, sebastion. i have a daughter with alcohol/cocaine addiction, so i think i can understand some of your struggle.
are you considering seeing a doctor about detoxing or going to aa?
keep posting! lots of folks here to listen and support you.
blessings, k
are you considering seeing a doctor about detoxing or going to aa?
keep posting! lots of folks here to listen and support you.
blessings, k
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Hey Sebastian, welcome to SR.
My story's pretty similar to yours, started getting hammered when I was 13 and I'm 31 now. I went through acid, speed, E's and heroin, but finally just stuck with alcohol.
I have been sober for 65 Days now, keep posting and reading, it's a really good place. Send me a pm if you wanna chat, and take it easy.
My advice is to just get through today and take it from there. I have been going to AA because I realised after years of struggling that I can't do this on my own. I am incapable of staying away from drink and drugs on my own, I just can't do it.
My story's pretty similar to yours, started getting hammered when I was 13 and I'm 31 now. I went through acid, speed, E's and heroin, but finally just stuck with alcohol.
I have been sober for 65 Days now, keep posting and reading, it's a really good place. Send me a pm if you wanna chat, and take it easy.
My advice is to just get through today and take it from there. I have been going to AA because I realised after years of struggling that I can't do this on my own. I am incapable of staying away from drink and drugs on my own, I just can't do it.
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Hi Sebastian,
Your story sounds a bit like mine. I kept the horror going until age 36. You don't have to do that. Believe that you can do it- stop - and know that many here believe you can as well. Seek out some sort of recovery program - I like AA - and see what you can achieve. Keep posting and keep trying. you can do this!
Mike
Your story sounds a bit like mine. I kept the horror going until age 36. You don't have to do that. Believe that you can do it- stop - and know that many here believe you can as well. Seek out some sort of recovery program - I like AA - and see what you can achieve. Keep posting and keep trying. you can do this!
Mike
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Welcome to SR Sebastian.
There are good people here who care about others and who will not judge you. You have taken a good first step. Do you have a doctor you can visit? If so, it can help a lot when you first get started on a sober life.
Hang in there.
There are good people here who care about others and who will not judge you. You have taken a good first step. Do you have a doctor you can visit? If so, it can help a lot when you first get started on a sober life.
Hang in there.
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You will make it. Just pray everytime you feel like you are getting weak. That's what I've been doing. Take it one minute at a time. I have been sober now for 5 days. This site has helped me a lot. Stick to it. You can do this.
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that is a lot of replies!!! thanks to all. I really feel supported here. I am actually seeing a doctor, who will be doing all types of evaluations. I need to know how my heand and body are at this point. I hope everything is ok. But right now, I am doing fine. Just trying to thing of today and not the weekend again. Get too many urges. I am sorry I was not online more today, its just hard getting used to but i will. I will be sharing tomorrow more with you guys. Again thanks for all the support
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Welcome Sebastian you have come to the right place! Please keep posting and sharing and know that you are not alone in this! Glad that you are seeing a doctor-step in the right direction!
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Good morning. Everyone. thanks for the support. Again, I am sorry yesterday was such a bad response in my behalf. Well, about me, I am from Ecuador South America, so culture is somewhat different. I guess it just makes it easier to get involved, and cheap. As I said, I have been doing it for over 10 years, with some ups and downs in the rythm of comsumption. But the honest truth is for the last 5 months, i dont enjoy it anymore. I just need it. And I am about to turn 30, and I have so many things coming along. A great business project, a great job opportunity, not that I am doing too bad, and most importantly, my relationship with my little daughter is getting better, I feel I want to settle as well. So all these things have added up and I realized a few months ago it was time to move on, failing on doing so. Although iŽve done a clinic addiction treatment once before, I was never really that serious about it until now. It was more like, just to keep people from being all over my stuff.
Anyways, I am not sure it counts, but is 3 days sober and counting. Although my body is still kind fo shaking at times and i have continued tics in my legs or hands or neck. Cant seem to be able to stop moving. I did get offered a drink yesterday, and i did say no. But my problem is more the weekend than anything. So weŽll see.
Also, I was able to run for 30 min. and do weight lifting afterwards, so I cannot be that bad physically speaking?? Can I??
Anyways, I am not sure it counts, but is 3 days sober and counting. Although my body is still kind fo shaking at times and i have continued tics in my legs or hands or neck. Cant seem to be able to stop moving. I did get offered a drink yesterday, and i did say no. But my problem is more the weekend than anything. So weŽll see.
Also, I was able to run for 30 min. and do weight lifting afterwards, so I cannot be that bad physically speaking?? Can I??
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[QUOTE=sebastianm78;1680058]
Anyways, I am not sure it counts, but is 3 days sober and counting. QUOTE]
Three days counts! --and counts, and counts, and counts! That's AWWESOME!!
~C
Anyways, I am not sure it counts, but is 3 days sober and counting. QUOTE]
Three days counts! --and counts, and counts, and counts! That's AWWESOME!!
~C
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