jackson123

It's been almost 6 months since I kicked him out. He called almost everyday for a long time. Begging, pleading but never changing.
He finally gave up. He wouldn't stop drinking so I never gave him another chance.
He moved Saturday. I'm so depressed about it. I still love him. I still care about him. When does the pain and worry go away?

My head always knew he was an alcoholic but my heart never cared.

Lisa

elizabeth1979

Hi Jackson, Im sorry to hear you are hurting. THis thread may be of some comfort.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ain-stops.html

jackson123

Thanks. This has been the hardest 6 months of my life. Even harder than actually living with him and his disease. Even though I know it's not true I felt as though I shut the door on him. He begged me to help him get sober. I knew that's something that I couldn't do but he just looked at it like I turned him away.
Thank you.

lilac

(((Hugs to you))). Yes, when they are no longer in the house with us, it makes the situation a different kind of diffucult that we deal with.

Just take each day one at a time. You did everything you could, but it is the alcoholic's responsibility for their actions and recovery.

I know it is hard, hon.......Been there, still going through that. Please keep posting.