SineadOConnor

Need to talk....and sort things out.

I'm trying hard to remain calm but the anxs is overwhelming. I have butter flys in my gut.....

Yesterday, my car died while I was going to get an estimate because it was hit back in May. It just stopped and I coasted into a parking long so I needed a tow. My sister came and helped out with her AAA card so I didn't have to pay for tow. My concern was my sister had been drinking all day and I could tell when she came. Ok that is her problem.

I'm sober and dealing with many things with the loss of my mother 2 years ago and I'm living in her house getting it ready to sell. I have no clue where to live because I'm on SS and the rents around her are terribly high.

Right away I want to run into therapy, but really????? I'm conflicted terribly. Since mom died, I've never really grieved being in her house here. I see know hope in this town for socialization for a young 65 year old who loves to have fun. I love people and isolation is taking over.

I'm venting I know, but I need to. Thanks for reading.

VigilanceNow

Hi there Sinead! So sorry to hear about your mother. That is not an easy thing to face no matter what age you are.

Glad to hear you're sober! What are your hangups about going to therapy? Therapy is great!! Some of the strongest people I know see therapists and are big proponents of it. I agree, I think it's something most of us need and those who are taking life by the horns and getting to therapy, more power to them!!

Astro

You are facing a lot and it sounds overwhelmingly difficult.

When I have too much on my plate I sit down and think it through or take a long walk and breathe deeply. Prayer and meditation are useful tools during these times.

growntoo

I know the feeling. Sobriety sometimes adds complexity to dealing with life. Just remember that the added sensitivity will probably pass with time. And the panic episodes do not pose any threat on their own as you know.