Wanting to re-connect
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Join Date: Apr 2005
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Wanting to re-connect
I haven't been here for a while and my sobriety has been on and off. I guess I thought I had it cracked. I've not been doing too bad recently. My last drink was on 8th April. However, a couple of nights ago, I almost drank and it made me realise I can't do this under my own steam.
So I'm back and right now I'm sober.
Both feel good.
Lawry.
So I'm back and right now I'm sober.
Both feel good.
Lawry.
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Join Date: Apr 2005
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thanks everyone.
Carol - My plan at the moment is to dedicate regular time to recovery. I went 8 months sober last year and managed that with online support, on this board and others. Then I drifted away because I thought I'd done enough to go it alone. I went on holiday and drank. I even planned to drink before going.
As well as dedicating regular time to reading here, I also plan to carry on my exercise routine which I started about two months ago. It really helps me stay sober. Also eating healthily plays a bit role in my motivation to stay sober.
Mostly though I just need to keep remembering that I'll probably never have it cracked and at any time my defences can crumble.
take care everyone.
Lawry.
Carol - My plan at the moment is to dedicate regular time to recovery. I went 8 months sober last year and managed that with online support, on this board and others. Then I drifted away because I thought I'd done enough to go it alone. I went on holiday and drank. I even planned to drink before going.
As well as dedicating regular time to reading here, I also plan to carry on my exercise routine which I started about two months ago. It really helps me stay sober. Also eating healthily plays a bit role in my motivation to stay sober.
Mostly though I just need to keep remembering that I'll probably never have it cracked and at any time my defences can crumble.
take care everyone.
Lawry.
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lawry, Welcome back. I've just after drinking for 3 months
of sobriety. Whatever you do don't go back out. After only 3 days my blackouts returned, I was getting drunk everytime. It really felt like my alcoholism progresed during those 3 years of sobriety. Of course this is my experence. When I picked up it wasn't a slow progression like having a few beers and building up. Three days after picking up I woke up on a bench. About 5 days later I found a hotel in Boston that gave veterans discounts. I stayed there a few time rather than going home about 2 weeks later, I hailed a cab to this hotel. I remember going in the door only. I must have registered for a room and walked out the door. I woke up on a bench near Boston Harbour. I reached in my pockets and found the key card to the room. I wasn't about to back in, so I went to an ATM. Sure enough the $99 had been deducted from my account. There was alot more. The worst being my wife trying to kill herself. We don't just take ourselevs down.The best thing I feel I can share right now is my experence, I hope it make anyone thing twice of going back out. Don W
of sobriety. Whatever you do don't go back out. After only 3 days my blackouts returned, I was getting drunk everytime. It really felt like my alcoholism progresed during those 3 years of sobriety. Of course this is my experence. When I picked up it wasn't a slow progression like having a few beers and building up. Three days after picking up I woke up on a bench. About 5 days later I found a hotel in Boston that gave veterans discounts. I stayed there a few time rather than going home about 2 weeks later, I hailed a cab to this hotel. I remember going in the door only. I must have registered for a room and walked out the door. I woke up on a bench near Boston Harbour. I reached in my pockets and found the key card to the room. I wasn't about to back in, so I went to an ATM. Sure enough the $99 had been deducted from my account. There was alot more. The worst being my wife trying to kill herself. We don't just take ourselevs down.The best thing I feel I can share right now is my experence, I hope it make anyone thing twice of going back out. Don W
Michael
Join Date: Apr 2005
Location: London England
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Don,
Powerful stuff, and a warning to the parade of alcoholics who think they can return to moderate drinking. I know deep within me that it is impossible and a story like yours reinforces that belief.
I sincerely hope that things between you and your wife are on the mend and that your sobriety is supporting her recovery from the trauma of recent times.
Best wishes
Michael
Powerful stuff, and a warning to the parade of alcoholics who think they can return to moderate drinking. I know deep within me that it is impossible and a story like yours reinforces that belief.
I sincerely hope that things between you and your wife are on the mend and that your sobriety is supporting her recovery from the trauma of recent times.
Best wishes
Michael
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