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I now realize the fight I'm in, and the target has shifted I no longer have a desire to drink and havent done so in 19 months. I do unfortunately have horrible craving to get high but its okay I'm going to fight. I was close to giving in a going and getting something tonight but that's to be expected.
the only thing that matters is I didn't.
I'm skiing uo north for the weekend and had a great day but I wasn't able to get to as rmeeting. I'm okay though eventthough I'm climbing out of my skin. I'm over my relapse though and realize things were bad even when I was sober so I need to make sure I take care of my needs better. also i wasn't letting others in to help me. I able to be venerable now wereas before I never cried because I couldn't but I can now. I know what I was doing wrong. and ultimately I had to relapse to truly get better. I'm very hopeful for the future even if I slip again which I don't plan on doing, because giving up isn't an option.
David