Awake61

Sitting here feeling so alone. I have no desire to drink. The reason I am feeling this alone is the years I blacked out night after night. I'm working on a plan to leave this place. My husband has been pretty horrid to be around, which isn't anything new. Of course I was pretty horrid laying around drunk! He shows no joy in my 10 month sobriety and the more I wake up the more I know I will have to leave him. Whatever we had 35 years ago has gone. Just had to write this down. My therapist has agreed with my decision to leave, just cautions to be careful. Looks like my oldest daughter (not his) has offered for me to come to her next month. This could work. Thank you for listening.

travelbug

Stay strong, stay sober. You are going through changes since you are sober. You are doing this for yourself. It will save your life.

Fusion

Awake, you are not alone, we are here with you, and your cat! Yes, sobriety lifts the veils from the eyes, for sure. You deserve a fresh start, Awake, if your husband has continued to be horrid and not provide you with support. Sounds like you've outgrown him, in sobriety. I'm glad your daughter had offered to put you up. Take care 🤗.

Bubovski

Congrats on 10 months sober.
Spouses can be pretty annoying at times.
Think it out carefully, you have been married nearly as long as me (2nd)
May not be smart to rush things....

Dee74

(((awake)))

I hope the new year will bring new beginnings for you
congrats on 10 months

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advbike

Hang in there Awake. Winter can also make things worse, not to mention all that is going on right now.

Be strong and keep posting whenever you need to.

Awake61

Thank you for your support. Means so much to me. Would have written this sooner. But no power for 3 days!

tomls

I'm sure you have thought about this long and hard. We can't control other people. Best wishes for you on the new leg of your journey!

saoutchik

Sounds like you are doing the right thing Awake, best of luck to you and huge congratulations on 10 months, there is certainly joy here at reading that. I know what an achievement that is.