Rockbottom1964

Until now the AV has won each and every time. Once even after a sober period lasting 12 years. I was, really; Sober for more than a decade when suddenly this little voice said: “Wouldn’t an ice cold beer taste just great? It did, and the next one, and the next, and then a week later a bottle of Gin, and then Scotch… And here I am, six and a half years later and my life in ruins – again, but worse than ever before – and having to start all over again.
But I will (start over). I’ve done it once and I can do it again. And this time around, I will beat the AV. Note that I don’t call it “MY” AV, as I’ve seen a few people on SR do. I refuse to use a possessive term for this ugly thing that has ruined - and still does –my, and millions of other lives. Whose devious whisper has probably killed more people over the centuries than the two World Wars put together.
It whispers to me many times each day and so far I’ve resisted. I simply cannot go down that path again; I’m 55 and if I don’t make it now, it will be too late for me. It’s something I just know. I’ll die, or worse, never realize my dreams and regain my self-respect. This time I will win, and this time, I hope it will be for keeps.

24 days today and feeling good…..

Sohard

theVman31

Best of luck to you RB !
Make 2020 be the one

Kaily

Hi Rockbottom I am one year older than you and have now been sober 14 months. It was hard and I thought I would never achieve it. But I did, it is doable. I was drinking at least bottle of vodka everyday but I never gave up trying.

Many a time in the first few months I hiked away my cravings. I would walk all day long in forests to the point of exhaustion. Come home, eat sleep repeat.

Well done on your 24 days ~ keep going and do whatever it takes.

And I have two Jack Russell's.

silversky

Thank you for sharing your good news. Your post gives me hope. Similar history. Once 7 years off (in my 30s), still trying to quit again in my 50s.

Rockbottom1964

Thanks for the lift-me-up, Kaily. I really apreciate all the positive input i receive from all SR friends. Peanut - the fatty - is a Jackie, Pinkie - big ears - is a foundling - a Fox-terrier, Chihuahua cross, I think. They are the loves of my life.My two children, who, I think, will die without me, and one of the reasons, believe it or not, that I've stopped drinking...

VinnyMcM

Almost a month in Rock. Well done!

SunnyCoastK

Kaneda8888

It sounds like you have great motivation, Rock ! My experience is having a solid recovery plan is essential. It creates a habit which acts as a pretty strong buffer against drinking. Do you have a plan ? Dee has a thread about creating one.

Reid82

Well done on getting back on track- keep it up!

Awake61

Your post really spoke to me. 64 and I can't go back to the poison. Got a few months sober. One day at a time..Keep strong everyone!

August252015

Glad you are back!!

And- really happy you have this chance. I know I won't get another, I was that bad in every way.

You started 2020 the best way poss. Keep going!

Hevyn

It's so good to see you posting, Rockbottom - I'm so happy you have 24 days.
We have similar stories. I had 3yrs. sober once. Decided to have 'a glass' of wine with a new friend who didn't know I was an alcoholic. 7 years later I came here in desperation, with a ruined life. I never picked up again once I found the courage to change - and it's been nearly 12 yrs. I know you will do it!

Tetrax

Good start! Sounds like you've learned your lesson, and your lesson helps everyone else too, so thanks.

anxiousrock

Dropsie

Great thread -- you all got this!

Rockbottom1964

Thank you everyone for your positive input and support. I can’t tell you just how much it helps. I have decided to try and post every day until I have at least 50 days under the belt. It will/and does, help me stay in touch with think-alike people with the same problem as me. (A problem shared is a problem halved…) Today, I am half-way there. Day 25.

Kaily

They are gorgeous. Mine are my constant companions, just me and my dogs here. One of them is 19 now so sadly very old.

Here they are taken a few years ago.



I think you should post everyday for 50 days and beyond. Anything that helps.

Congrats on day 25!

Rockbottom1964

They're beautiful, Kaily. And thanks for your input. I will keep posting.

Zebra1275

Sober for more than a decade when suddenly this little voice said: “Wouldn’t an ice cold beer taste just great? It did, and the next one, and the next, and then a week later a bottle of . . .

Sounds like my experience. Except I was sober 5 and 1/2 years and the bottle was vodka.

What are you going to do differently this time around to get, and stay sober?