Feeling it's time
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Feeling it's time
I have never before felt depresssion this deep. I feel like I have totally wasted my life and there is nothing to move toward in the future. My body has failed me, and my mind - well maybe I've been kidding myself all along.
I do have a way out that will be ruled natural. Not quite at that point yet, but getting close.
Curently hiding in my bedroom. Waiting to see ... Looking to find a reason to hold fast.
I do have a way out that will be ruled natural. Not quite at that point yet, but getting close.
Curently hiding in my bedroom. Waiting to see ... Looking to find a reason to hold fast.
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Sorry to hear things are not going well Charon. I'm glad you came here to reach out for help - things are never completely hopeless as long as you have the will to change. When you say that "it's time" - do you mean time to stop drinking?
The other way out is not a way out at all - at least if it's what I think you might be suggesting. If you are indeed seriously contemplating suicide please call a help line now - even 911 is a reasonable call to make if things are that dire.
As far as a reason to quit and hold fast....how about that many of us were where you are now and know that getting sober is a very viable way "out" - of the depression that is.
The other way out is not a way out at all - at least if it's what I think you might be suggesting. If you are indeed seriously contemplating suicide please call a help line now - even 911 is a reasonable call to make if things are that dire.
As far as a reason to quit and hold fast....how about that many of us were where you are now and know that getting sober is a very viable way "out" - of the depression that is.
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Please call your doctor, a suicide help line or get to the ER either on your own or call for an ambulance. It sounds serious as you’ve mentioned deep depression and a method. Please call someone for help right now.
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Hi I'm sorry you feel so low Charon.
For what its worth there's a lot of links and reading that might help here.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
I think moist of us have felt despair before and thought it will always be like this. That's simply not true.
You can come out the other side, with help.
There's a lot of support here too. You are not alone
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For what its worth there's a lot of links and reading that might help here.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ease-read.html
I think moist of us have felt despair before and thought it will always be like this. That's simply not true.
You can come out the other side, with help.
There's a lot of support here too. You are not alone
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Charon, I've had that thought.
The life I have now in no way seemed possible then.
Take a break from fighting and put yourselves in the hands of the experts. See your doc or go to the hospital.
Please trust the advice you've been given here.
The life I have now in no way seemed possible then.
Take a break from fighting and put yourselves in the hands of the experts. See your doc or go to the hospital.
Please trust the advice you've been given here.
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It took me longer than it needed to be to reach out for help from people that were able to get me out of the abyss that you are feeling. Don't defer the action of getting professional aid. It's not natural to be feeling this way,, all the time, and it can change.
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I know what it feels like to feel completely hopeless. I know what it feels like when this illness has beat you to your knees and you feel like you have nothing left to give.
I was gonna go too...i had said goodbyes. For whatever reason, I decided to crawl my ass outside and my neighbor took me to the hospital.
I had terrible organ damage...i was already diagnosed as a chronic alcoholic who was prone to relapse. The team of doctors game me almost no chance of long term success.
My ass is still here 3 years later.
Call a hotline, an ambulance, or go to the ER, but take the decision out of your hands.
Truly, life can be a beautiful, wonderful place to live. You just gotta ask for help.
Please do that for yourself.
I was gonna go too...i had said goodbyes. For whatever reason, I decided to crawl my ass outside and my neighbor took me to the hospital.
I had terrible organ damage...i was already diagnosed as a chronic alcoholic who was prone to relapse. The team of doctors game me almost no chance of long term success.
My ass is still here 3 years later.
Call a hotline, an ambulance, or go to the ER, but take the decision out of your hands.
Truly, life can be a beautiful, wonderful place to live. You just gotta ask for help.
Please do that for yourself.
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Recovering my senses
Depression is easing up. My perspective is getting better. I just stayed in bed where I was safe. Thanks for all the good thoughts.
Too many things ganged up on me all at the same time. Heading back to rehab tomorrow. Going to beat this - I also have a great therapist. Should have called him and moved my apointment up as soon as I started to find myself getting overwhelmed.
Once again, thanks.
Too many things ganged up on me all at the same time. Heading back to rehab tomorrow. Going to beat this - I also have a great therapist. Should have called him and moved my apointment up as soon as I started to find myself getting overwhelmed.
Once again, thanks.
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Really glad to hear that, thank you for checking in Charon. I hope you can learn a lot and heal while at rehab and i'm glad you have found a good therapist. I went through a few myself and finally found one that I really connected with, I think that's very important.
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Doing what my therapist said. Rest, treat myself well, and wait - it will pass.
In the future I will be looking for activities to replace those I can no longer accept/acomplish.
In the future I will be looking for activities to replace those I can no longer accept/acomplish.
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How dark it is before the dawn!
i recall reading that and not feeling all that hopeful. Now, looking back, I'm eternally grateful for all the doom and gloom I felt just prior to getting sober. It turned out all that pain fiiiiiiinally motivated me to start taking the actions I had up until that point been unwilling to take to get better.
i recall reading that and not feeling all that hopeful. Now, looking back, I'm eternally grateful for all the doom and gloom I felt just prior to getting sober. It turned out all that pain fiiiiiiinally motivated me to start taking the actions I had up until that point been unwilling to take to get better.
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