Your old posts...
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Your old posts...
I went back just now an re-read every one of my old posts...quite disappointing. I've made little to no progress in the 10 plus years I've committed to this site. Well, committed isn't the word I should use because obviously, there was no commitment...Day 1...I need this!
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Since you see that you've been stuck, maybe this is the time to come up with a plan for recovery that will work for you. And, committing to come on SR every day and read and post, would be a great start. 
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Good to see you, Sillyboy. I hope you'll do what Anna suggests - checking in every day really helped me to not feel alone. I grew stronger & more determined when I read & posted. I'm glad you want to make this change in your life - you'll never regret it.
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Originally Posted by Sillyboy 
I went back just now an re-read every one of my old posts...quite disappointing. I've made little to no progress in the 10 plus years I've committed to this site. Well, committed isn't the word I should use because obviously, there was no commitment...Day 1...I need this!
When you’re active in addiction, it’s a sobering reminder of how real addiction is, how empty the promise of “moderation.” How little things change.
But is there’s one thing I’ve learned at SR the last month, it’s that there is another way. Full commitment. Full rejection of the addiction voice.
It can be done. So many amazing folks here are living proof of it.
Make that promise to yourself and break out of the prison of addiction. We can do it.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
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I struggled for 15 years like that sillyboy.
Eventually stooping drinking was the oily viable choice I had and once I gave all of myself to the idea if not drinking, it all got a little easier.
Its never to late to change, and never too late to start writing that chapter two.
do you feel ready to say never again? if not why not?
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Eventually stooping drinking was the oily viable choice I had and once I gave all of myself to the idea if not drinking, it all got a little easier.
Its never to late to change, and never too late to start writing that chapter two.
do you feel ready to say never again? if not why not?
D
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Join Date: May 2010
Location: East Coast
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I joined in 2010, my sober date is 3/1/2016. I dicked around with this wayyyyyy too long.
I can tell you for certain, this is the easier way. All of the struggling, and the hopelessness and the pain was so unnecessary.
We all do it the same way...one day at a time.
I can tell you for certain, this is the easier way. All of the struggling, and the hopelessness and the pain was so unnecessary.
We all do it the same way...one day at a time.
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Join Date: Jul 2014
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Many here including myself, followed the hard path you seem have been trudging. It took the gift of desperation to open the door towards a solution others have found as well. Some of us seem to wait until the pain of not doing something is far greater than continuing with our debauchery.
Hopefully others may learn that it is not required to waste decades before embracing real change. Friends called me Mr. Highbottom. Funny, they aren't around anymore and no one refers to me in that manner.
Hopefully others may learn that it is not required to waste decades before embracing real change. Friends called me Mr. Highbottom. Funny, they aren't around anymore and no one refers to me in that manner.
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Join Date: Oct 2017
Location: uk
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These shares really speak to me, the half hearted quit "attempts", the insane schemes to try and be able to moderate I messed about with. Telling myself I was working on my problem, I wasn't. I was playing mind games with myself to enable my drinking to continue. Such hard hard hard work.
The only solution is to abstain completely.
The only solution is to abstain completely.
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Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: New York, NY
Posts: 6,263
Since it's obvious that what you're going doesn't work, perhaps it's time to try something concrete. The support of the AA fellowship was invaluable for not drinking one day at a time. But it takes willingness to do whatever is necessary to stop drinking.
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Join Date: Feb 2009
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Wow, thats funny I did the same thing. There was so much self deception and straight up lies on here on how "well" I was doing.....quite pathetic. That being said now finally after over 11 months of actually being honest and working the steps in AA with a sponsor I look at the posts as great fuel to keep me focused Odaat!! Blessings to you all!!
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Let be be clear: the last place I ever wanted to wind up was AA and I hated it for a while. I simply couldn't stop on my own and if I continued drinking, I was going to die. And what I saw is my best thinking got me drunk, so I just gave up and said "tell me what to do."
It's called the gift of desperation.
It's called the gift of desperation.
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