48 hours since my last drink
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48 hours since my last drink
Hi guys,
It’s been 48 hours since my last drink and i’m determined to stay sober this time despite feeling edgy and restless.
A bit of my backstory, I’m a musician in my mid 40s and I usually drink to disassociate, consuming around 10-20 units at a time, or until I pass out, though not during the day. This pattern has been pretty constant for a long time and it’s been causing a lot of depression and anxiety as well as sabotaging my career, relationships and health.
There is no enjoyment in my drinking, it makes me feel utterly miserable and up until now, I’ve only been able to abstain for 2-3 days tops.
I’ve read a lot of posts on this forum and it’s been great to read all of the encouraging support for others. I’m not putting too much pressure on myself and I’m taking it one day at a time.
Thanks for reading this x
It’s been 48 hours since my last drink and i’m determined to stay sober this time despite feeling edgy and restless.
A bit of my backstory, I’m a musician in my mid 40s and I usually drink to disassociate, consuming around 10-20 units at a time, or until I pass out, though not during the day. This pattern has been pretty constant for a long time and it’s been causing a lot of depression and anxiety as well as sabotaging my career, relationships and health.
There is no enjoyment in my drinking, it makes me feel utterly miserable and up until now, I’ve only been able to abstain for 2-3 days tops.
I’ve read a lot of posts on this forum and it’s been great to read all of the encouraging support for others. I’m not putting too much pressure on myself and I’m taking it one day at a time.
Thanks for reading this x
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That's the irony once you reach a certain stage in alcoholism it's just not worth it anymore.
Even if you're able to stay sober for a period of time, once you return to drinking it's that same miserable feeling of anxiety and depression the following day.
In my normal drinking days I would never feel that way no matter how much I drank the day prior, but now it's like what's the point? Personally I have finally come to accept that.
Even if you're able to stay sober for a period of time, once you return to drinking it's that same miserable feeling of anxiety and depression the following day.
In my normal drinking days I would never feel that way no matter how much I drank the day prior, but now it's like what's the point? Personally I have finally come to accept that.
Hi toblerone!
So glad you are here—you got this !
For me, sleeping early and/or keeping busy during drink o’clock time really helped.
I read a lot on SR and googled a lot on alcohol addiction
Best part, the wonderful posts and support here.
Looking forward to your posts.
So glad you are here—you got this !
For me, sleeping early and/or keeping busy during drink o’clock time really helped.
I read a lot on SR and googled a lot on alcohol addiction
Best part, the wonderful posts and support here.
Looking forward to your posts.
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Thanks for the replies guys I appreciate it,
It’s tough, especially feeling irritable and edgy but I’m thinking of my brain as a computer with a dodgy reward circuit programmed in. I’m trying to focus on abstenance creating the opportunity for new healthier reward circuits to supersede the dodgy alcohol one, if that makes sense!
I’ve read a lot about neuro science and find this a helpful way of thinking about my problem with the booze.
Day 3 is an important marker for me, I’ve rarely got past it before ��
It’s tough, especially feeling irritable and edgy but I’m thinking of my brain as a computer with a dodgy reward circuit programmed in. I’m trying to focus on abstenance creating the opportunity for new healthier reward circuits to supersede the dodgy alcohol one, if that makes sense!
I’ve read a lot about neuro science and find this a helpful way of thinking about my problem with the booze.
Day 3 is an important marker for me, I’ve rarely got past it before ��
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Toblerone, welcome aboard and congratulations on your decision!
AVRT( great threads on these ideas here on SR in the Secular recovery forum and subforums) was the " patch/new os " I resonated with and something that sounds like it lines up with your current thinking. Check it out , rootin for ya
AVRT( great threads on these ideas here on SR in the Secular recovery forum and subforums) was the " patch/new os " I resonated with and something that sounds like it lines up with your current thinking. Check it out , rootin for ya
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Welcome Toblerone! Glad you found SR. I have found this to be a wonderful source of support. I’m just on Day 10 so I don’t have much advice except keep focusing on staying sober. It’s not always easy, but when you take a minute to reflect you will see the subtle improvements in your life. I’m sure it just gets better!
How you feeling?
"Just not worth it anymore" speaks volumes and goes to what many of us finally realized and felt deep in the bones. I know I did.
41yo here, sober finally for good after many years.
Welcome to SR. The place got me sober.
"Just not worth it anymore" speaks volumes and goes to what many of us finally realized and felt deep in the bones. I know I did.
41yo here, sober finally for good after many years.
Welcome to SR. The place got me sober.
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Thanks for the messages.
I’m still sober, so that’s 72 hours from my last drink at 21.00 GMT on Friday.
I bought myself some potato chips and candy as a treat on the way home, rather than alcohol as usual.
Feeling tired and edgy, but watching movies to keep occupied x
I’m still sober, so that’s 72 hours from my last drink at 21.00 GMT on Friday.
I bought myself some potato chips and candy as a treat on the way home, rather than alcohol as usual.
Feeling tired and edgy, but watching movies to keep occupied x
Hi Toblerone. I have a number of heros that are musicians in an wide range of genres. I find enormous inspiration from them musically, but also in this dilemma too. Some have made it, some haven't. I learn from both. The lists are really long. Music plays a big role in my recovery and many who've made it are on regular rotation every day. I know here in Los Angeles there are significant resources thrown at recovery by musicians. Is that something that you think might assist where you are? Did I see you live in London....?
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