60 months tomorrow
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60 months tomorrow
Tomorrow, unless an act of god happens I will be at five years. I can't believe it's been that long. I have come a very long way and I was a complete hopeless drunk. I was probably what you considered a functioning drunk which isn't really much to be proud off. Driving drunk and getting arrested, getting mugged twice due to being drunk. Numerous fights in my younger years and almost lost my marriage. Last time my wife threatened to leave was six months before I quit for good. I was able to make it six months past that date without her leaving. One day she decided to go on a vacation solo to get a break from work. I'm sure it was more of getting a break from me. For some odd reason I decided that enough is enough. The day she left on her vacation in July of 2013 I was supposed to be celebrating that I could now drink for a week like there's no tomorrow. Instead I went home and went to bed. Got to work the next day and felt this strange feeling that I was done with Alcohol. I haven't touched it since. Mind you I did a mental inventory and decided that I didn't want to live like this anymore but this time it was for real. I think the key to my success was that my wife left on vacation and she did not threaten me about my drinking this time. She just quietly went and I believe that somewhere deep down I felt that if I didn't change now she might come back from vacation and then go on a permanent vacation from me. Either way, I did it. It has not been easy by any means but so much rewarding that I can't even begin to describe it. My cravings are almost never present any more and as soon as I remotely think about alcohol, I play the tape in my head about all the misery I went through drinking. I can honestly say I don't miss that lifestyle at all. I've saved so much money, lost weight and found so many joys in other things. I'm sorry if you read this and still struggle with drinking. Just remember it's never too late and I am an example of that. I drank since my early teens until I was 46 years old. If I can do it, you can do it. Thanks for reading.
Tomorrow, unless an act of god happens I will be at five years. I can't believe it's been that long. I have come a very long way and I was a complete hopeless drunk. I was probably what you considered a functioning drunk which isn't really much to be proud off. Driving drunk and getting arrested, getting mugged twice due to being drunk. Numerous fights in my younger years and almost lost my marriage. Last time my wife threatened to leave was six months before I quit for good. I was able to make it six months past that date without her leaving. One day she decided to go on a vacation solo to get a break from work. I'm sure it was more of getting a break from me. For some odd reason I decided that enough is enough. The day she left on her vacation in July of 2013 I was supposed to be celebrating that I could now drink for a week like there's no tomorrow. Instead I went home and went to bed. Got to work the next day and felt this strange feeling that I was done with Alcohol. I haven't touched it since. Mind you I did a mental inventory and decided that I didn't want to live like this anymore but this time it was for real. I think the key to my success was that my wife left on vacation and she did not threaten me about my drinking this time. She just quietly went and I believe that somewhere deep down I felt that if I didn't change now she might come back from vacation and then go on a permanent vacation from me. Either way, I did it. It has not been easy by any means but so much rewarding that I can't even begin to describe it. My cravings are almost never present any more and as soon as I remotely think about alcohol, I play the tape in my head about all the misery I went through drinking. I can honestly say I don't miss that lifestyle at all. I've saved so much money, lost weight and found so many joys in other things. I'm sorry if you read this and still struggle with drinking. Just remember it's never too late and I am an example of that. I drank since my early teens until I was 46 years old. If I can do it, you can do it. Thanks for reading.
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No recovery program, only this web site and a mental decision to not drink. I quit several times over the years for brief periods of time and once for a whole year back in 1996. Went to AA during two periods of time but this time I did it on my own. I found it to be easier. Formal programs just made me want to drink worse. Note, I'm not telling you what you should do. Everyone is different.
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