kevlarsjal2

Hi Luv!
I can relate to your story and about 2 years ago I was in a similar position. I didn't drink to forget anymore, not to get drunk, just to function. Because the days I tried to not drink I was so anxious and just felt horrible. I didn't drink till I blacked out or anything, no crazy amounts, just a steady intake so my mood would be good and I would not be a shaky, anxious mess.
I went cold turkey at home which I don't think I would recommend. I am lucky it worked out just fine but this depends on so many factors.

I couldn't quite imagine to survive for long without alcohol in my system and couldn't imagine to function without it. It's possible though. It takes our bodies a while to adapt to the change but if you want it, give it a real chance and be patient. You'll see that after a while you will even start functioning better without it than you now do with it.

Stayingsassy

thanks august. It is still my number one priority. I would never casually throw it away, any more than I would abandon my own child. without it I am in a prison of my own making that is unbelievably difficult to escape from. I've been given a huge gift.